footprints..

pfftt. apa ah? things go in fast motions again, i couldnt really capture things in its finest details. i kind of forgot a lot.. hmm

went for daily breakfasts outside. the group has new members. so its merrier now.. being alone, being in the small group, being with a partner, being in a larger group, i did it all, and i remember each parts well.. and i, i liked all the experiences.. though its more fun lah kali now.. (but i bet kalau telampau ramai inda plg siuk kali)

my legs (maybe calf) were painful last two weeks.. went for a treatment, bcause coach was a bit alarmed about it since ive never complained any pains yg lasts a bit longer than normal.. skali kata therapist nada papa, minor saja.. bagi malu saja :p but it was throbbing! couldnt jump, couldnt do speed.. it was annoying.. i liked it when i was excluded from doing exercises but.. it didnt feel right.. skali being treated pakai this 'ultrasound' treatment and ice atu nyaman jua tapinyaaa hehehe.. now getting a lot better! i jumped, i did speed. alhamdulillah.

ah klw tah krajaku cmani saja, siukkk eh. workout. eat. sleep. repeat. nah balik2 sudahku bcakap i wish aku dapat income from whatever ive been doing for the last 8 months! nyeh.

went for a movie last two nights and lepak arah 3 different makan minum places, with the morning group, plus three people ive just met that day (friends punya friends, cousin..etc). ani jua krajaku time ani, meet new people and enhance social skill (right.perghh) haha.. but its been fun -so far- meeting new people, get to know more about things, places, their life, character, way of thinking, etc :)

one of my friends said about how he categorizes his friends.. and i said "so u are categorizing us too. ure putting people into boxes man!" and with that statement, im even worse, im accusing people... haha.. i know that people have "types" and there are dominants parts of them which then puts them into "categories" but then again, i believe that human is... antah, deep. there is a dominant part that makes us who we are, but that is not all who we are. there are other parts. and those other parts change, flexible, indefinite, undefined.. the same case where "everyone makes mistakes, but doesnt mean we can be put into that same boxes of mistakes forever" and "just because they dont argue with you doesnt mean they dont have opinions at all".. its not that i never judged people.. as much as i try to avoid, sadly i do.. but i still feel that 'categorizing' people isnt.. right. (i dont know, i just feel so, i could be wrong. yeah)

conversations i had today were actually fun.. and interesting. oh, that one part i was asked "so which actor do you prefer?" we were talking about twilight and how they hated it, how some of us liked jacob.. and i just rolled my eyes to the part where my friend told us that she and some girls gasped masa di wayang, the part when jacob buka baju.. haha.. i rolled my eyes not because i have something against jacob -or even twilight- but i hate it when girls (or boys) react that way to physical beauty. i just.. hate it! :p i dont really know why, i guess i am someone who sees "handsome is as handsome does" and physical beauty alone doesnt deserve a gasp! (lesser than gasp, is acceptable. hahaha).

and i think, i never showed them my interest in any specific actors (or any artist), mostly i went neutral.. (even backed up miley cyrus and twilight. :p so that might have made them wonder who i really am. haha) the guys sometimes commented which actress is hot blabla (pfft), admitted how they usually concentrated better in subjects where the teachers are pretty (pfft. haha).. at first i thought that question referred to twilight actors, between the two, which one i prefer.. and i didnt expect to be thrown that question.. so i stumbled a bit, saying "err.. i dont know.. neither.. nada prasaan" after a bit, i said "eh bapanya kali. bapanya the vampire" (lupaku namanya time atu) but rephrasing the question, he asked "i mean generally, not twilight.. which male actor do u like, who makes u excited?" i couldnt even answer that! i mean.. i do like quite a number of male actors.. but none that really makes me crazy. none that i really tail. on and off, depending on the season (ceh. haha) and types of charaternya and movienya.. i couldnt think of one specific person at that time.. so i said, joking "okay, i'll get back to you" :p now.. to think of it again, i think.. im gonna list those who crossed my mind today: damon salvatore (ian) - i like damon more than 'ian', i like most parts of damon's character, but not everything about him.. i like channing tatum, specifically for step up 1, i like hrithik roshan's dance movements (bcause we were talking about bollywood actors too), i like sucre's character in prison break, i like sawyer's face, physical, and character in lost, i like gundul guys, i like fast furious (out tia. haha), and and and i loveee si Gladiator.. not sure if its russell that i like, but i think aku suka the movie character lah, not really russell crowe.. if commented that im talking more about movie characters than real person, i dont know who i like as a real person.. but if asked who i think is hot, i'll give bechkam as an example, i think? (and so is tatum!).. i like some actors yg a bit old too.. i think theyre sexy and charismatic.. but not sure who to name, specifically. im sure there are a lot of names i havent listed but yea, this is what i can come up with for now :p

emm.

entah. im just thinking.. i am a bit emotional lately.. its like, wherever i go, i know im gonna miss that step.. either way, whatever my path is next, im gonna have to leave the kind of life im living since the past 8 months.. its hard and sad to let go whatever i have since those months.. for the ups and downs, for the good and bad days, i think mostly ive been... happy. alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal..



"they told me that to make her fall in love, i had to make her laugh.. but everytime she laughs im the one who falls in love" haha!