week 35

when u wanna write something but dont have time to do it, u let the stories and feelings slipped away with each passing day..... lupa tia apakan dtulis! sungguh mengecewakan :p

ive been stressed, the past two weeks. mostly due to PMS. ditambah tia lagi with the sudden change in my daily routine. especially the hard double training last week. but something happened this week, the training jadi super super easy... tapi sama jua kakiku woobly ah, brabis sakit and kajar2 my calf, so i couldnt really run.. jgn th kan run, at one point i didnt believe i could even stand and walk.. today i tried the treadmill, still painful but okay lah.. better than nothing lah..

so i'll begin with what i remember most. haha. kmarin:p yesterday i was supposed to do zumba at 3pm.. sampai sudahku ke sana, skalinyaa ramai orang brabis.. i hesitated.. mcm malasku jua.. then one of my friends parked his car siring aku and bawa aku ke tmpt zumba atu.. kan mau sudahku ni, skali time ku memasang kasut, and other friends were waiting jua.. he said "bh ke sana lah ku dulu".. he left me, he left me! haha. tau sudahku malas2an kn masuk, when he left me, malas th ku kan ke sana tu eh. so i didnt go in.. stayed in my car at the parking. texted my friend, asking if she's available untuk lepak.. but she wasnt available. ended up texting byk2 and batah2 with her.. took about half an hour. psal keretaku atu batah enjiinnya be-on, ku tutup tah ni.. turunkan ceramin.. (while i was texting, tapi kan abis sudah. hehe).. yatah ada tia urg kereta sebalah ani bcakap sama aku, asking about places.. he couldnt find any of his team mates, we ended up becerita2.. (mcm urg dating lah. hahaha. no, i think he is married! :p) becerita2 sampaaai urg abis zumba (-_-) pedah wh aku ah, baik plgku join zumba nyehehe. he seems like a nice guy. and easy to talk to. when my friends came, they were surprised i was still there. haha.

the thing about people is, sometimes i dont know how to interpret whatever theyre saying.. or doing.. like when people say "lapas ani ke stadium saja ku eh, belari.. alang2 jua" and then say "sorang lagiku ni belari. boring jua tu" and the next minute say "kau, inda belari sana?" i dont know if thats a hint of invitation or its just purely empty questions.. or if its a sign they want to leave or wants me to leave sudah.. if its my version, if im the one posing that question and statements, that'd be hints (err i think?nah inda th ku sure if im a straightforward or hint-kind of person) but in interpreting others, usually, i'll take that as a non-hint pulang. just a question. especially when it comes from male.. pasal i always think that male slalunya prefer to be clear.. antah eh.. (now i think i understand why boys never get hints. they prefer straight bullets clear statements) hmm. but being a girl, its quite difficult to 'survive' as we (most of us, at least) usually read into things more than what is actually there. thats how non-honest sweet talkers take their chances and thats when girls could come out perasan skali inda pedah2 broken hearted tia (kesian kami). but ah, really, sometimes i dont know how to tell genuinity. (regardless of the genders, but its harder with male)

ah if only im paid for going to training in the morning and afternoon, do whatever i want during the free time between the trainings, go out with friends, get to know people, meet strangers and clicked instantly, bond with a small group of friends and strangers.. learn and experience new things, feeling so free and happy.. being myself and just.. live.. appreciate the moments and the little things.. woo, i can easily choose this kind of life! (but unfortunately, this isnt a real life.. its just a nice detour that is hard to let go) aah.

on a short note, monday, got into trouble. tayarku masuk lungkang (bravo, handal saya itu), and someone got injured during our training..

first time driving this one friend home. pasal we live 5 minutes away from each other, and keretanya rosak. the next day, we switched driver, aku jadi passenger. wheee!

this week ive been spending my days bejalaaan saja full day. tiring tapi siuk! emm i think i need a full week at home, do nothing, and get bored.

im too sleepy to put things into feelings-description. hence the "short note".

antah. baaaii!


"..because when you get to know someone, really get to know them.. you could fall in love easily"
"..and when you get to know me, really get to know me.. you will fall for me"