yesterday..

where to start? got many things to.. tell, if 'tell' is the right word?

1. terabah kmarin

if ure my facebook friends, u know well that i.. terabah, or more accurately tegelincir yesterday right? in front of some spectators? heh. most of them, like 90% of them i didnt know them by name. i know who are they as in theyre athletes dari mana dari mna.. whereas those yg aku brabis inda tau, theyre the regulars there (for example, the football team.. team atu th yg slalu belatih dsna, hari2.. or at least, klw lurus ku ada, andang ku tenampak dorang..) and i was, kind of alone. i had coach, ofcourse. and know one or two people yg aku inda biasa pun jua.. so klw terabah time sorang diri ani, mbagi malu! if i had my friends with me, bisai juaa.. i'd rather them laugh at me smpai padih parut than have them diam2, and pretend to be nice..

like yesterday, some people senyum2 giling2 arhku (and i didnt even know them. but we both know kmi ani "regulars".. yatah yg mabgi malu tu nah, i can be identified bcause i am a regular fr the past two weeks, bisai lgi klw luan2 stranger.. hehe).. some parts of me thought that "eh drg ani, cuatah eksen2 saja inda nmpak" but ada this woman, her response was "licin baah".. the different responses made me rethink of what would i prefer to see, or hear? klw kna ketawakan ulih strangers ani mbari malu jua, tpi kalau drg pretend inda tau lain jua rasaku, and if they act nicely inda jua "complete" rasanya... but for sure, when im around my friends, i would rather them laugh all they want! nganya klw sakiit terabahku atu, jgn ktawa sja inda menulung ih.. hehe..

and me, klw ku nmpak another stranger trabah, usually i'd pretend not to see.. (or at least smpai ku gigit2 bibir bh trying not to smile/laugh - especially klw urg dewasa telanggar cramin kaca.. heheh) but nxt time, i might smile and shake my head! :p

(baik plgku tarus eksen pengsan tu kmarin ah:p)

2. ofis

unfortunately boss kraja outside office yesterday ptg.. didnt get to meet her, so mini bosses suruh call saja, if inda ia angkat, misis~ wasap~ so i called her, had a nice conversation - she was 'civilised', empathatic and understanding - so, ia cutikan aku fr now, until she can get some words from bigger bosses and the biggest boss.. mnyusahkan jua aku atu ah? haha. mcm th hal ku ani penting sangat.. hehe.. im not receiving any allowance anymore (pasal its over. thats all that was arranged fr us, fr me..), i dont mind.. but it means, i dont feel guilty of not coming to office laah.. told her that way, and she could totally understand it, she was even surprised that i am not given anything, she didnt know.. hehe..  (not that im intended to appear complaining or tamak but it means i have no obligation that ties me up at the moment, unless i offer to come voluntarily, thats on me lah..), and since there is nothing to do at the office, i asked fr a "release".. my intro on the phone i said "i wanted to arrange an appointment with u to discuss psal attachment, kan minta release.." she said "eh kan kmana lagi kau?" (i think she thought i wanted to go to other departments again. hehe. luan kn pindah2 jua aku atu), so told her that i wanted to stop coming and why.. and said that but if there's anything to do, if im needed, or if u think there is something good fr me to attend, im still willing to come though.. she said actually she wanted to give me some works (i was half-excited, wondering what kind of work would it be this time.. tpinya half-takut jua, mcm msani aku inda smangat and utakku buntu batah inda aktif bpkai on challenging things, so i was afraid not to deliver well) but she said "tpi indaku jadi bagi kau kraja, aku pun guilty th jua tu mun ko inda receive income, tpi nyuruh2 ko bkraja. u know what i mean?" i get it, i get what she means. like i hope she gets what i mean.. hehe..

so, im on a break again! yay! :p but ofcourse, i'll come when and if im needed.. insyaAllah, i'll try..

skali that afternoon smpai ke early malam, i suffered a strong migraine. havent had strong ones fr quite some time sudah.. alhamdulillah.. skali dmlm atu yg tahap muntah lah, but my stomach was a bit empty (kn mkan, parut inda nyaman psal kn muntah), ate sdikit and swallowed two acti-fast, was still doubtful if i could get to sleep with that pain and just with those panadols, but it was an easy fast-asleep.. my kpala was so barat that i fell asleep after one minute.. hehe..

u know, its not easy to be a girl.. kmarin heranku, my legs, my body was so sangal.. it isnt like the normal exercise days.. pikir punya pikir, then i assumed its bcause im having my period. when we have our period, we lost some amount of blood. and hence, iron. i think i havent quite replace those lost-iron yesterday.. hence the extra exhaustion.. entah lah..

eh kalat mataku ani..