thunder

di malam kan... tv, astro and wi-fi at my bro's rusaaak, psal tekana kilat.. heheh. that must have been the scariest temparik ever yg prnah ku experience (barangkali lah. not sure, bcause aku andang takut guruh.. hehe) must have been sesaat dua saja jarak light and sound.. huhu.. tapi bisai udah ni ah, bcause im indoor.. cant imagine if i was outside or driving.. huhu..

so now im using my phone's hotspot. nyeh.

today... was boring. haha. nadaku buat apa2.. bejalan2 inda jua. just mengampai2 cmatu saja. so i guess it was right to say that my morning sessions were the most exciting part of my life now (-.-)

coach gave me a rest today nonetheless wlwpun aku failed kmarin! hehe. i think its bcause ia andang kan bagi aku break, and bcause nxt week he'll be tough to me (jarih ni jarih, gerenti), and maybe bcause effort matters.. wlwpun failed, but i put an effort in it right..? hehe. i didnt mention about the distance yg ia eksen2 arahku atu, i pretended not to know it was 2.9 and he didnt mention about it too.. so now i doubt if it really was 2.9.. haha.. nadalah, i think around 2.9 plg bnar.. udah baik internet th ku mengoogle, ani abis krg cdt ku.. hehe.. but its actually wise for me not to know and for him or anyone not to tell me plg, spaya aku lakas andal belari.. mindset plays a huge role u know..

the thing about running or anything that challenges you (i put mine as running bcause running has always been challenging to me, and it teaches me so much..), it is a temporary pain and its just some "illusional" pain.. until today, i felt bits of regret with yesterday's performance. tebayang2 ku part2 ku bejalan atu and a tiny tiny voice kept telling myself "was it that painful that i stopped?" -- "i shouldnt have stopped. i should have just run more.." see, i forgot how painful and exhausting it was.. sakitnya sekajap saja, i should have tahaan more. at the end of the day, aku satisfied baah.. ani sadang lah, im satisfied with my improvement, but i saw the areas i could have done better, so regrets slipped in. but at least, i know where i could improve the next time i do the running.. hehe.. yg part ku bejalan atu nnti jog saja.. that would save up at least 1-2mins..

when i first joined the program masa 2011, we did the same route. tpi we started running only after 150-200m away lah from my starting line kmarin.. i did it in 22mins, continous jog.. so im pretty happy lah with the bits of improvement. heh!

cali ah how much i hated running (and i think i still hate it) tapi i keep talking about it like im accepting it, like it has become my passion. i doubt it has become my passion.. but it challenges me, and i think thats what make running interesting to me (eventho i hate it) and yes, i love the way it gives me sense of satisfaction..

ah kakiku yg bakas kana treat itu gataal laah. hopefully not infected.. bcause i wanna run on monday and the whole week nxt week. excited ku ni.. haha.. (i dont like feeling this way, pasal im expecting too much.. expecting too much tends to disappoint us more.. huu scary!) and yeah, i wanna heal laju2.. my abah even called me today, asked if i'd be home tmorrow bcause he wanted to treat it versi traditional, pkai buah kepayas. hehe. inda plgku tau if its okay to treat it with kepayas now, tkut juaku kakiku ani inda bersih under the skin, bcause it was bleeding kmarin.. and now balum fully karing.. ah lets just see, hopefully okay lah. if kan mau traditional lagi, some people treat "wart" manually, dorang burn pkai api and kurik.. or just kurik laah.. tapi indaku mau eh, sakit juaa tu..

emmm...

night night! :)