maybe, i just havent met you yet? or.. i have, but.

1. these two days.

buruk ku rasanya dua hari inda buat apa2.. haha.. back in cairo or aussie (but mostly cairo) and those days i stucked at home when i returned from cairo (no phone, no internet, no car.. just being a fake babysitter and... isolated), there were days like this.. ampai2 saja, baca buku cerita, browsing internet atau liat cerita arah laptop.. it was okay.. i think im just not (yet) used to doing nothing.. and by doing something, i mean bukan kraja, tpi jalan2 included.. those fun things.. hehe.. payah bh, dulu ada housemates and we were doing the same things (belajar, having same schedule, etc) and i had my sister.. but now im alone, people at home ada urusan sendiri, kawan2 pun ada urusan sendiri.. jadual lain2.. i remember those busy days masa mula2 balik aritu, i didnt have as much time... tpi klw kn dpkir2, i think i prefer now lah dari aritu tu..

(so... i think its time to look for a boyfriend or.. boyfriendss.. no? haha)

2. new phone and credit usage

ever since i bought my new phone, aku karak makan kridit.. and thats no good. mostly pkai utk internet laah tu. apa jua, last week's credit i used for angkat calls like max 1.60, call max 1.00.. the rest? menginstall whatsapp ani kononnya kn jimat cdt, nadalah... lagi tah more frequent the rate of "communication" - more than i spent for 5cents sms yg dulu2 atu, i think. padahal most of my time i spent at my bro's, ada wireless udah tu ah. yataah, pkai phone lama atu jimat, i only used for sms and calls. nadaku cek facebook (except masa di office) or even internet.. by the second month aku balik, inda tia byk bpkai lgi cdt ku bcause inda byk urusan lgi.. emm.. ah biar tia plg~ :p

ah that one day, coach came to me, while i was holding my phone.. he said "eh u got many friends ah? i always see u like this" i was surprised! didnt know i was sticking to my phone that much. bad bad bad. i went a bit defensive, saying "naa. this is the first time u saw me holding my phone!" ofcourse he said no.. oh so.. ive become one of those phone-holding-freaks, yang dipengaruhi peredaran zaman? oh no... time to get back to reality. phone time is phone time. lepak time is lepak time. sport time is sport time. and doing nothing is phone time and anything. heheh.

3. guilt and being a little girl

didnt go home kmarin.. pasal by patang, ujan labat.. so my sis in law advised me not to drive home, bcause its such a long waaay to go (one hr lah average and normal speednya).. serba salah th jua ku, bcause i told my father that i'd be home by saturday.. but despite that bits of guilt that i felt, i think he wouldnt want me to drive malam time ujan.. hmm.. karang ku balik, jap lagi..

*ah ahir2 ani macam makin sensitive aku ani.. :p i feel guilty a little more easily and.. ive been acting like a little girl, not little LITTLE, but little-r than 25yrs old. (ah like i said, formal is formal, informal is informal.. when im informal, im a little girl. when its not a serious matter, im a little girl.. when im with certain people, im a little girl.. and.. so what?).. people usually think im younger than 25.. i think its bcause of my size, the way i dress up, the way i bring myself juaa (tpi mukaku tua lah sudah. haha).. the new aunty msatu told me, she thought im 16 or max 18 (hadui, mun ku 16 nadaku drive), the nurse asked me what im doing the running for (i told him aku bawa kakiku ani belari), "is it for school?" -eh liat lah aku punya taun lahir.. urg 25 normally mnada school..- and so was the doctor "why u got so much time in the morning, inda schooling kah" aku pun jadi kambang laaah sikit2. haha! but other people got it right jua, "dmna kita keraja" or "how old is ur daughter" -that was in 2011, when i was looking for little mermaid book- or "are u married" etc etc... tengok lah muka saya, mcm urg tua jua sudah bnarnya :p

4. new haircut (dont read this)

got a new haircut. this time, its short sudah. ofcourse people at home noticed. yayai said to her mother "buncu cik punya rambut lain" his mother responded "awu mcm kaka kn?" he said "awu, tpi lain. lawa" (wehehee! mesti dilanja cuklit tu. haha) but he didnt tell me its lawa. he said "rambut buncu cik cali" (and the other sibs pun cakap cali), i asked him "cali? tapi inda lawa kah?" he said "cali, tpi lawa. heheh" ah cali and lawa cant be combined! its either cali OR lawa. not AND. so.... choose one, or youre lying. haha. tpi whatever. it doesnt really matter. hehe.

5. my foot

and btw aku jalan tinting2.. a bit takut my foot will get kamah (arah wart area), inda mau ia infected! inda plg sakit prasahanku.. before this kadangnya aku jalan tinting2 jua, but bcause it hurt. coach pun slalu tagur aku jalan catu, at one point he said "u cant continue walking like that" i asked why, he said bcause my muscle will shift to other places (bukan tmpat yg caraku normal bejalan lah muscle atu lari) and it will affect my running..  (ah sport scientist jua bnar dorang ani. hehe)

6. coffee

emm i think im about to get addicted to coffee. the last time i went to kopitiam, i ordered their coffee. their white coffee was nyaman! that was my first coffee after maybe 6months, a year? lapas tu tbayang2 sja th ku kupinya. haha. (and i wanna go there just fr the coffee and yeah, american bfast lah. i like american bfast. hehe). tapi saya bukanlah seorang peminum kopi.. bcause coffee makes me dumdimdum, inda relax rasanya.. indaku sukaa lah the feeling it gives me.. so ive been avoiding coffee.. paling2 pun dua bulan skali lah kali.. tpi arini, aku pun minum kopi lagi.. (nah dua kopi sudah within a week)

bah eh! balik balik balik..

(tmorrow im gonna start my day at 630am. meet new people. and... ambil my anak buah balik sekolah. busy busy busy :p)

random brabis entry ku ani. heheh.

have a nice sunday.... and.... drive safely! (to myself. to all of you. amin ya Allah)