tomorrow i'll give you a break

today i had my running test.. he asked me to do (the so called 2.4) in 15minutes.. ah, mnadaku dapat tu.. my best was 16 and... i havent done a straight 2.4running for many many weeks. sebulan kali eh sudah. slalu 3 round saja. yesterday 5+k, tpi walk-run...

so today coach assigned me to jog 800m, rest 5 minutes and run 2.4k in 15mins.. as usual, aku menawar2 itu ini before eventually agreeing.. heheh.. he then said "if u do 15mins, i'll give u a break. u'll only have to come on monday" (dui esuk plg nganya tu ertinya inda pyah datang.. tpi klw kn inda dtg pn sanang jua saja.. haha) but the way he said it made it sound so tempting.. tpi inda jua ku motivated.. skalinyaaa i did my running in 20mins (haha) atu pun putus2, run and walk.. told him earlier "doesnt matter how i do it right? i walk then sprint or full running" -- him "eh doesnt matter. i dont care, even if u crawl. as long as 15mins"

most of them did different test, tmpat lain but same area lah.. sorang saja dgnku tpi kmi start ali2, and he didnt do the 800m warm up..

when i was done, the so called partner asked me how was my running.. told him it was 20mins.. i grinned, "nada arapan eh.." but he said "ada eh harapan.. bnarnya it was 2.9k.. coach gitau aku tadi, tpi disignalnya jn gitau kau" hmmph. i suspected so! the route was more panjang. didnt think it was 2.4, maybe labih sikit.. and an extra 500m means a lot. seround track merah 400m atu wah, mun udah mngalih 4-5min baah tu.. tpinya i did better diujung2 plg tadi atu.. hehe.. (but still, i failed. he wanted me to do 2.9k in 15mins so that if i do 2.4, i would pass easily)

havent told him that i failed. so not sure if i still have to come tmrrow or not (ceh buat2 inda tau. haha. pasaaalll ia eksen juaa, he told me it was 2.4! so we are even, i can take my off:p)

on tues, he asked me to run long distance, said because they have to test my timing. weds, he said nxt week i'll have to start my training, so karut2 dahi lah ku, and asked "why?" -are they taking my training more seriously now? is it time already..?- just wanted to know if it is.. but he was a bit secretive! then finally told me that next week, i have to come at 630am. aku pun awu2 saja lah.... turn out, new scholars are coming (dorang yg alum start blajar. baru kana award scholarship) they'll be starting their program with the ministry and nxt week dorang punya fitness training.. (not sure lah sampai bila. maybe a week program kali) so coach told me.. "u'll be my assistant", kept saying how he'll make me the "chief instructor" CEH! thats why he is being so "harsh" to me since the day he knew the scholars are coming. everytime he mentioned me being the instructor, and so i have to do a good performance, i said "instructor means instruct, not do:p" aha! pmalas! indaku tau bnar kah inda ia ani kan nyuruh aku assist ia. these few days, he tested my performance lah, to make sure aku inda memalukan iaa.. hahahah. (ah i dont care. i do what i can. im not here to impress people:p tpi for sure, if he wanted me to assist him, i'll give my best. i want to jaga air mukanyaa and make him proud. hehe) to think of how weak ive always been in fitness, and how buruk it was when i started, im really flattered that he at least considered me to assist him. that he at least wanted to trust me that much. that at least i can feel a sense of pride in him, in what he has done to me. and if bnar tah aku assist him to coach them... aah, thats such a good feeling. never thought i'll be good enough to "lead" and teach people in fitness. HAHA.

but then again, if he changes his mind.. i think, i'll be a bit disappointed. bcause im... starting to hope that he sees me at least that "qualified" now. wlwpun masih ancur juaa laah. hehe. but what we feel is what we feel.. we cant control what we feel...

ah tadi aku khospital, doing my foot treatment. today inda kana bagi nitrogen, yatah inda brapa sakit. yay. tapiii.. ada dead skin kan tu, yatah di kurik2nya (ah sakit), and the nurse kept saying "indaku dapat bgi nitrogen ni, ada air" infected kali lah, or had something to do with the dead skin. then ia ambil this one cream putih.. instinctively, i asked "sakit kah ni", she replied "inda. padih nganya. pasal kakimu bedarah" AH BEDARAH rupanya? mngilu ku eh.. huhu..

baah.. thats it:p