that day

i woke up, saw a bit of light outside the window. ah ahir ni.. it was almost 6. had my prayer. krg inda sampat. hehe. then malas th ku mandi, lalai tia.. scrolled facebook that early, and saw.... his uploaded picture. my sis exfiance's. it was a detailed (sadang) description about the things they used to do together, and it made me cry. it touched me. those things reminded me of her, of the old days, of the things my sis and i used to do, of the things we used to tell each other.. i miss her. a lot. some of the things we used to do together, i dont do it anymore. i try to live with it. with these changes... with her absence... and at times, i'd still look for her :(

i.. pray for her happiness out there.. amin ya Allah..

i look fine. i think i am fine. i dont wanna do some dramas. i dont wanna cry that bad anymore. i'll try not to. tpi inda plg dapat dicontrol tu aritu tu.. hehe.. know what, rupanya my nephew remembered that day i cried badly at the airport very well.. he kept on saying -antah, 3 kali th sudah prasahanku ni- "buncu naik aeroplane kah aritu?" so i said yes, tpi ani inda lagi, buncu balik sudah. inda jalan lagi... then he'd ask "napa buncu nangis masa naik aeroplane atu?" the first time he asked, i smiled tpi tekajut, and a bit sedih.. i explained to him "sedih lah.. pasal amit nada sama2 buncu lagi" but other times i just replied versi buang kes "buncu nangis kan?" he nodded..

andangnya ni kanak2, kuat ingatan:p but seriously it was so bad. so bad that i'd even remember klw ku teliat urg lain mnangis cmatu.. especially klw masa jdi passenger kapal atu.. hehe.

ah.