and the world's gonna know your name

ah i have enough time now, i always go here:p i better be a writer, start writing about my (life) bibliography, chaaanaa? haha.

i dont even know what to say... emm...

had an interesting exercises but boring sikit lah psal aku sorang lagi :s napa kah merekaaa iniii.. aku inda dtg sehari, dorang tinggalkan aku sorang diri behari2.. ini lah akibatnya malas dtg.. haha..

im a bit disturbed with... something.. code word: merpati :p (pedah di tulis tu dang, mun inda kn mbgitau. just fr my own reference waaah.. huhu)

coach said "can u come at 645am tmorrow? so we can start early" i gasped. awal juaa.. 645am baruku abis sarapan tuu.. lately kami slalu dtg 730.. hehehe.. he said again "i am usually there at 630am. nothing to do, i wait and wait, so i sleep in the car" since he was done with marathon, he was a bit free early in the morning (except ada lah hari2nya ia busy awal pagi) i dont know why, mcm ksian jua bunyinya so i agreed to come in between 645-7am. "when u come, u knock my car. i am probably sleeping" alrite. mengapaaa lah dia ini awal dtg jugaaa? good habit though. start ur day early. and he is passionate about training people. i dont think he minds training people fr free - provided that he already has a steady income lah slash employed. [if i sound like telling all the positive things about him and u think that i like him 100%, no you are wrong. i do think of negative things.. tapi malasku membajai -ve atu, its not gonna be good if i look at him differently, the +ve sides make up fr the -ve ones anyway.. hehe]

last monday i came across my scholarship application essay. i read it like i read fr the first time. i forgot whats in it. so i had fun reading it. said to myself: now i know why i passed the selection process. i sounded pretty wise fr a 19 year old girl. i would even pick myself, i would rather set aside the other issue :p hahaha. ani perasan nih. naa, but reading the essay reminded me the fighting parts of me.. the berakal parts of me.. that minute i was injected with some kind of semangat: i wont let this go. not until there is a black and white that says they let me go. i will go to the ends of the world to find a way. it will kill me knowing that i havent tried my best to settle my problem. it will kill me living the rest of my life wondering if i could have done something more, wondering if i could have gone through the hard days beautifully, wondering the what ifs.. and if i still fail to find a way within the time given, i can live with that; living with the fact that at least i tried. maybe thats the kind of person i am.. tapi seminit nganya plg tu. then another voice came: but this is your only opportunity. this is what you have always wanted.. maybe this is it. maybe thats why this happened. maybe this is the answer to your prayers.. are you sure u havent tried ur best?

naah ~

hehehe. so i shut myself up and i'll just go with the flow..

im money-less but im enjoying my cuti! :D

*dont quote me. my words, my thoughts might have been careless..