beceritaaa

aiyo.. baik pun moodku, buruk pun moodku, i still miss her. everything i see, everything i remember.. bring me to her. but tonite it hurts more, i mean hurts more than my normal days. tapi those days aku down brabis atu inda celen 'hurt' nya tu ah.. hehe. i dont know how to explain that 'stabbing' feeling bh, that feeling i kept telling u about.. i sometimes forget and then i remember she's gone, and it hurts.

just wanna say i miss her. i dont think i can ever be completely 'healed up'.

anyway, did my presentation yesterday. ngehehe. HUGE GRIN. psal aku happy kraja makin kurang udh. still byk lah but i feel better now. now tu ah, indaku tau esuk lusa:p dont know how i did lah kmarin. antam saja, malasku mkirkan. yg pntingnya i wasnt as nervous as i thought i would be. tapi wlwpun catu nganya tahap nervous ku, abis ilang skrip jua.. menulis udhku tu apakn ku cakap, inda jua ku ikut skrip.. abis skip2 jua.. hmm..

masa masuk klas, i was a bit early psal klas before atu awal abis. so aku duduk dpan sikit spaya sanang kdapan utk present lah. and there were only a few of us. lecturer ani dtg tia.. and because aku ampir ia and directly eyes to eyes.. cakap tia "youre going to do your presentation today rite? this must be the toughest time fr you.." and i was wondering napa ia cakap catu ah? psal minggu ani byk due kah? then ia sambung "bla bla.. u came all the way from brunei to aussie, then u have to present italian fp.. you've gone a long way. but its okay, after this u can tell all ur friends that u did an italian fp" -andang ciguku ani nyanyah. pnjang tplg lgi cakapnya tu. haha. didnt know how to respond. other people laughed. aku malu2 kucing. and mumbled 'they wont be impressed', mudahan th ia inda tedangar. haha. now that i think of it, i should have said "u know, i went to italy last year" weee:p haha oh forgot to tell you an important fact: lecturerku is an italian! hehe. klw ku gitau aku pnah ke italy, up kali markah:p  lecturerku atu andang penyaya, nyanyah, cali (cali yg more to animated, but cali), and masa first week lecture, kmi kana suruh isi paper ani, pilih foreign policy country mana kmi mau present.. but i went out of the class early, inda sampat pilih. tpi ilang tia papernya atu. nxt weeknya, suruhnya lgi isi paper atu.. tapi inda mau smpai2nya paper atu arhku haha.. udah smpai rhku, full tia negeri yg ku mau ani, so i didnt have any pick.. i said to him, u can choose fr me.. i dont mind.. he said "youre so generous". somewhere in the week, i changed my mind and picked one country (India) just because it'd be a strategic week. i said, klw inda ada space jua, then choose fr me tah.. udah ari thurs di class, he asked me (sluruh class mndgr ni) "did u get my email?" i said yes, psal ku pkir email yg udhku baca.. tpi bukan.. hehe.. ia cakap "i gave u italy. because no one wants to do it and youre so generous" hmm okay~

so before i went fr my presentation kmarin, he said again "she has come a long way. brunei doing italy fp. later u can tell that to your friends" -majal ah. haha. he's cute and baik, so im cool. haha. and i heard some giggles. time ani full class, tdi alum.. huu. emm andangnya lecturerku ani kuat memorinya ni. ia apal nama kmi smua and kmi dari mana. andal. urg background history th jua bnar..

bah okeh~ cematu tah ceritaku. tidur ku aaah..