think i like carpets!! haha. not those formal extravaganzzzaa ones, just.. the simple, young, pluffy.. for simple room decorations.
bought one yesterday, no.. ordered one, customized it.. i was excited.. but.. there was something in me that felt... unsatsified.. maybe i regreted the money i spent on it.. or.. simply i wasnt satisfied with the colours/design or apa2lah... but i wanna buy more from that kadai....... huhuhu.. and im not sure if i will regret this soon or not... some parts of me are happy doing this, ive always had my eyes on them... since lamaaa udah...
anyway. tomorrow is raya in egypt... (tonight is the ist syawal) i... am not ready yet.. emotionally, physically.. im still tired pasal bakas kmarin..
im not the type to get excited or even maybe affected by hari raya.. or maybe affected in the way that i dont really like the celebration.. i dont know what to say, or what to blame... when i read my sis's post.. she does not get excited fr raya partly because raya would be without our mother.. raya would just remind us of her and how incomplete and lacking raya had been since she was gone.. i dont know if my nature of feelings fr hari raya is because of that same reason or simply other reasons that i can think of or the combination of all or... its just me, naturally with or without those events would still feel this way...
i felt sad these few hours, but i think its not really because of raya... more to leaving ramadhan. maybe? or for what ive missed, for whats different, for whats leaving me.. antah.. i.. dont know how to say it... just mixture of deep feelings..
oh yesterday i went to aussie embassy and... the certification of documents is costly.. i was frustrated that my plan A has failed.. or not yet successful;p but.. frustrated!
hmm i feel sooo sleepy right now, and i have to sasah baju. aaah apa apa lah..
selamat hari raya aidilfitri egypt! and to all other places that share the same eid day. maaf zahir batin.. ;)
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