yo

stress sebelum waktunya akan menjurus kepada tua sebelum waktunya. aiyo.

ini adalah tanda2 besar bahawa mungkin satu hari, iaitu soon, bila sudah tiada mampu menyusun pace secara baik semula, maka jiwa akan explode dan menangis.

i am abandoning my memorising, a big mistake there.

i have 40 mins essays-home-test,do-it-honestly-please and some readings to do, before 6pm

i have a report to complete which is supposedly due before 12 midnite brunei time. i dont think i'll submit it on time...

i have a study group tomorrow, have to baca the buku and cari mkna and understand, explain.

i have a big decision to make. one more email reply, then i'l have to do whatever i think is right... it really feels like starting from square one all over again... i guess, i was careless... and a little unlucky - of which holds thousandsss more great things,reasons and meanings behind it.. im sure :)

and most of all, my worries and this-lotss-of thinking lately is half-killing me (tips: dont think too much while suffering PMS) :p

i think my way of dealing with things is just not good enough, otherwise i'll be okay. ani pun kan stress dang? cematu wh~ labih wh prasanku~ mcm overreacted bh~

its just, when you think you have so many things to do, you indeed have many things to do but no solid plans on how to do them accordingly, no steady actions, no good solution, it leads to pressure. (yet, there is this kind of "over-faith" saying to yourself over and over again, 'its okay its okay, i know how to do this. i'll be okay, it wont give me pressure. im doing good' but what is it that you do, really? what makes you think you know what to do when in fact you have no plans at all... this failure of producing actions in the end will build up the pressure even more...)

and... its... when you spend too much time in something, u feel like losing grasp on the other something... and it creates panic inside you... hence the unwanted early-stress..

iatah kn mliat movie nganya bh krajamu~

my pace is unstable. far behind targets. i have to regain speed, the right speed! i have to find steadiness bebeh.. and then, everything akan jadi magik.

kalo sudah ada magik, aku dapat kek, & ingin bershopping. okeh? okeh.