calendar

so.. is it about time i cross out days on the calendar, or ticking them, noting "done"? haha.

waking up, feeling nervous, not knowing what to expect of the day? and at the end of the day, ticking the calendar, grateful and happy that i got thru it? ive been feeling a little bit that way. and i cant imagine brapa kali ganda kah rasanya cmani nanti. hmm.

its only monday, so i cant really say anything. but it seems like i feel a little less nervous this week than last week. still hating the 2.4 daily warm ups though! hmmmph.

my routine has changed, altho not drastically yet. but it has changed.. and its less predictable and comfortable now..

so its really time to take each day as it comes... just live the day and try to get thru it.

take each day as it comes..

today, my friend said something like 'what if youre chosen to go overseas to do this something?' i said no.. i dont wanna do it.. he then said 'i wont be surprised if kau kana antar'... eh. no, i have enough problems and shortcomings already. i dont think i want to handle that.. but it means something (or a lot) to have someone said that to me.. and coming from him whose approval seems a bit payah since he wants to go there also (err maybe he was just joking, bcause he knows i dont wanna go. but the part he said he wont be surprised if im chosen, wont be surprised if they picked me means something to me).. whatever he saw in me that made him said that.. i want to hold on to those words and make them my motivation, inspiration? something to make me believe in myself? some kind of.. hope? and faith? heheheh.

anyways my new tagline "u wanna lose me? u wanna lose me? fineeee!" :p

night night.

i know tmorrows not gonna be easy.

but i hope, i'll get thru the days beautifully.

ya Allah.. permudahkan lah urusanku.. berilah aku kekuatan.. semoga semuanya selamat dan berjalan lancar.. amin ya Allah..