cranky

i dont wanna do this. infact i dont wanna do anything. i just wanna curl on my bed. stay indoor, do nothing. i guess im not in my most cheerful mood. havent felt this a way for quite sometimes. until this week.

my freedom is being snacthed away from me. thats okay, i should have been ready. it is time. but.. it just throws me into a bad mood! and just because im in a bad mood, i feel like i dont wanna do this kali2.

i cancelled my morning workout, despite the joking-ly threat my friend sent me "im not talking to you on monday if youre not coming today" normally, i'd come.. not bcause of the "threat" but i'd just come bcause thats how i'd want to spend my time. and i cancelled going beraya with my friends too. thats a bad sign. i havent cancelled appointments slash dates with people since as long as i can remember! huhu

and i havent replied to her text and other texts. sigh

point is, im not sure if i really dont wanna do this or im clouded by my cranky and super malas mood :(