he was angry

"thanks *my name*" he said.

man, youre soooo welcome! x_x but i didnt reply. there are just some people who are so handsome you couldnt even look at them, let alone talk. haha. well, at least that applies to me. an automatic action (or inaction) jejeje..

i dont know how i am. not very good i guess. worried. about... just.. family matters. i pray everything will be alright. amin ya Allah..

i guess, a small problem is only a problem until u see bigger ones, then u kind of said to yourself "what was i complaining about? that was nothing compared to this"

this week feels slow. ani baru hari rabu. hmm. ive stopped counting how many hours i get to sleep. but during the day, tetutup2 jua mata while watching the kid. drifting to a bit of lala land was so easy, coming back to real world and keeping myself really awake was haaaard. anyway, i came to a conclusion that im not a good babysitter. just doing whats enough.. no special skills.. lacking.. all i do is make sure the kids are safe. ayoyo.

been late to training. its addictive. bcause i get to skip some workout, and it didnt feel that long. batah sudah ku inda serious buat workout.. until.. last nite, i got scolded. came a bit earlier than usual, maybe only 7-10mins late. saw coach outside the gym, asking where the scholars are. i was a bit surprised that they havent come. theyre always early.. and say, if they decided to escape pun, indakan smuaa kali? if theyre not coming bcause thats what their schedule says, coach would have been informed. so i thought, gerenti dorang salah tempat or well, escaped (20% chance lah escape).. they didnt have coach's number and vice versa.. aku inda lah brapa rapat sama dorang ani, but bcause i am "one of them" or was a scholar, i come from the same place, so i have good networking. ceh. i told coach i'll contact them but he looked a bit angry and said "nevermind, if they come, then they come. if not, then not. its already late. they didnt inform anything" he went in just like that. tried to contact them tpi inda kna reply apa.. batah jua lah ku sibuk2 mncari.. i didnt even listen to what coach said when he gave instructions for warming up. i ended up doing the wrong one. yang seround saja (inda logik tah bnar. haha. tpi sibuk ku memigang2 telipun. yatah tuu nah. ps. orang lain buat different warm up).. so basically, i didnt do warm up.. then i came to coach, asking "what do i do next?" but he seemed cold udah dari awal ia tau aku inda buat warm up atu.. then he fired at me, infront of the national athletes "next time dont bring your phone ever again. ure busy with ur phone, u didnt even do warm up" he didnt raise his voice, and his face wasnt that serious.. but enough fr me to feel his anger or annoyance. i knew he was serious with what he said. i looked at the athletes' faces, i knew they felt coach's anger too. we all fell into silence fr a little bit. then i said "sorry wah coach, i was contacting the scholars" sian jua tu mun drg inda tcari tmpt.. but maybe he thought they deliberately kan ahir kah apa kah.. he said again "let them be. if they want to come, they would have come already" after some minutes, someone returned my call. i explained the location. then i told coach that theyre lost. he said "how come. yesterday i explained to them. see, you and some others could find the place" he still looked angry. klw nya bcakap capat, and with that intonation, marah ya tu. haha. so i sat at the corner of this antah something 4 segi, shrunk myself a bit, and uttered slowly "now youre angry at me again" he then changed his intonation a bit, "no.. this thing happens you know, people lost and couldnt find place. last time, i got angry at this girl until she cried. bcause we had to depart using the national bus. blabla" telling the whole story. okay, good enough he soften up. hehehe. when the scholars came, i think he was still a bit angry, he made them run 6laps. i wouldnt have realised 6laps is a punishment, had he not said "theyre late. i make them run 6 laps u know" smiling one of his puas ati smiles. hehe bnar jua ah, warm up mnada 6lap.. its 2-4.. ive known him quite enough to know that that is one of his favourite of punishments/way of showing his anger; not by shouting, not by humiliating others, but making people do extra harder trainings.. (pasal ia pernah bcerita zaman muda2nya.. hehe)..

ah anyway. thats my long story. i think this is the second time ia marah arahku. or third. but yg kedua yg aku bnar2 rasaa lah. hehehe. actually i was planning inda datang arini.. tpi bakas kana marah atu, datang on time tah ku ni and buat yg bnar th ku ni, inda cheat2, inda complain2... hhehe.. insyaAllah..



Rabbi ighfirli waliwalidayya warhamhuma kama rabbayani saghira.. amin ya Allah..