uhh huu huu

one day.. im gonna be there, somewhere on the top of the stair, slowly as it might be, im gonna give my best to find my way.. insyaAllah.. amin ya Allah..

ive seen it before, the coach made people jogged up and down the national stadium stairs. but ive never tried that one.. today was my first time..

u know what i learned today? "pandai2 beidup" hehe - that training mate kept on saying ever since we met: "yatah caranya ni, coach inda meliat, pndai2 th eksen" but i didnt really notice the way he "cheated" - he was simply taking a break, a short one! tapiii ari ani... haha.. it was noticeable, bcause he skipped some rows and kept mengasut aku to do the same, so aku nampak lah psal ia manggil2.. hehe.. and klw tiba2 ia two rows further from me, mna th ku inda kekajutan tu.. haha.. aah these people! :)

when i am done with my rows, i saw them duduk and laying down keamparan.. the first thing he said when i reached them "kau ani, inda pndai beidup eh", more in a-laughing way, referring to how i didnt want to skip the row.. it didnt hurt me, it made me... proud, of myself. haha. its not like i am not the-cheating-type of person, i am! but i cant cheat on this one, i have to work on passing my time.. hehe.. the coach asked us to do 3 sets, but by the second set (or was it the first and half), i saw them ampai2 (except the marathon boy lah, he did 5 sets, meround2 all the rows).. unsure whether they were berehat or abis.. so i said "abis dah kah? or one more set?" they both replied:

"eh aku sudah eh, ngalihku"
"aku inda eh.. mengampai udah ku ni.. mun coach tanya, aku cakap aku injured ni"

awuu mun sudah paluh mengalir2 dari tanganku ani bah, mengalih plg bnar eh.. and his face, abis bepaluh. haha..

i said i didnt cheat bcause i am afraid that i would regret it (exactly how i felt, i wanted to have that sense of satisfaction: i did this, i completed this, i tried..).. and asked further about the real training.. theyre nice people u know? nice and fun (bukan mcm urg setayi sibnr lah jenisnya)

friend's husband was late.. and he couldnt find his way to us.. so he didnt join us, he only started his training once we were done with the stairs (i had to go back to office and they continued their training)

at office, doa selamat.. and i met this "selling pitches" man, bukan plg officemate, i got to know him more today - i still dont like him, he was the one who shouted at me unreasonably, two years ago..

and afterall, it seems like im not gonna get the chance to be attached arah that different department :( no so called granted wish after all.. did they lie? or was just being smart, putting the dates of my attachment sama macam the dates they were planning to give us the initial informal training? or was just this a coincidence? or was just this - klw sampat, sampat.. klw inda, bukan tah rezekinya tu... im a bit disappointed, but... im taking the last one, maybe i havent got the opportunity to have this another experience.. byk th hikmahnya tu.. hehehe