if i go back to the posts (yg sdikit hantap atu) last year, i would find myself writing down my training and attachment days in (day 1, 2, 3 - and then stopped, the posts lambat and bejurit2 tia) but the pattern suggested that it was difficult right from week 1.. then by the second month, it got easier..
this time around, week 1 and 2 were considered easy.. my friends asked me: "macam2 th coach suruh buat? pisan kali ni"
"sudah ko ada rasa kan beurut-urut (haa haa)"
and my answer to those: "entah ah.. okay saja, sanang saja yg ia suruh msani"
then came week 3, especially starting thursday atu yg mataai rasanya... naaah kau, ambil tia sanangmu ah... payahku kan menstraightkan tgnku msani.. puttttuii putttuiii... kana tumbuk2 blakang ulih anakbuah atu nyaman rasanyaa.. reminded me of last year, every monday, we would talked about waiting for wednesday, and on thursday we would be waiting for friday.. and weekend felt very short.. barukan recover, comes monday again.. it was hard/funny, waking up with those pains, bejalan pn inda lurus.. duduk pun payah ani bah.. some of us, batisnya inda mau straight fr a few days.. lalu coach pun mnggunakan ilmu menarik2 kaki... straight tia kali.. haha.. aku turun tangga pun mcm putung spring rasanya kajap2..
then the weeks got better.. we were used to it.. and we had each other, it was a lot of fun... lapas exercise, we beibun a lot.. and yeah, fun.. and i didnt feel the pressure psal im gonna leave for master :p (awal2 atu sajaku pressure psal it was hard and i didnt know if i would leave kah inda)
this week im starting to (seriously) count the checkpoints: wednesday-friday-weekend, im starting to not wanting to go to "work"...
but i hope the weeks get easier.. tpi inda plg tu.. brapa lama jua nganya lgi aku attachment ani.. and then the tougher-serious-prison days tiaaa.. mun awal ani pun ku mengomplain, apatah lagi nnti ni.. haha.. labur dang..
i wish you all were here.. i said it before, but this time around, i mean it more.. :(
but at the same time, i wanna see how i would do it on my own (fr example, deciding on my own speed and endurance without the influence of others..)
although, its always better to have you all around.. huhu
ani peberet gambarku ni last year... hahaha.. :p *sweet and scary:p
i spent today -recovering-, and sbnrnya aku inda balik kampong.. ndaku jadi.. hehe.. ngalihku kn drive :p esuk i balik.. cancelled hiking today, tomorrow ganti.. di kampong saja hiking or equavalent, insyaAllah.. kmarin, after office hrs, he asked me to do 6laps under 18mins and then rest 5mins, do 6laps again under 18mins.. i thought i could do the first 6 lah.. but i didnt run on red track, i ran (jogged) arah 800m per lap, psal aku inda ampit red track bh.. skalinya i did okay lah fr the first 800m.. then lambat th ku, kekurangan nafas yg stabil:p and i stopped around the second 600m, skali ku liat nada chance tia kan bubut masa.. malas th ku sambung jog yg bisai.. lorrr.. in total, i did only 4 laps out of the 6 asked (6 laps =12 laps of 400m).. monday kana suruh under 17mins.. under 17mins (16 plus) was the best aku pernah buat, so im not sure if i could do faster than that.. not sure if i could ever pass the timing yg sbnrnya kana required.. hmm
masa thursday siuk sikit the task.. do 12laps of 400m, but alternate.. jog and walk.. but have to make sure every lap yg jogging atu timingnya 2:30.. skali, mcm biasa lah.. the first lap mcm sibnr.. i did okay lah, 2:09 (tpi kaing lihir kurang napas lah saya.. hehe) and by the 6th lap, i did 2:38.. haha.. mcm rata tia average ku, each lap 2:30.. still, if i run 2:30 in each lap, masihku fail jua.. padahal out of the fitness test, running should be the easiest fr me... ahh relek aaah.. take it slowly ah.. huhu
ari slasa, the coach will ask me "did u run?" and i will tell the truth, insyaAllah.. hehe..
anyway.. i miss my sister.. i remember last year, i went all quiet, strangely quiet after being shouted at scara inda logik reasonnya.. and she noticed it, betanya saja ya kenapa, i cried.. i didnt know i would cry.. didnt know i'd be that fragile.. i cried -both angry and sad-.. i think, if she asked me how i am now, i would tell her, crying.. ohho.. i miss you sister.. did it reach you thru my prayers? :')
majal jua aku mempost aniah... aha! cerita pun balik2 jua genre nya.. (isi pun kan balik2 nganya inda) skalinyaaa... napa, ada masalah? :p
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