thats a bull

"... so in one week, you should spend 10 hrs for each subject.. you know, we must be strategic and well prepared. that is how those with good grades do it. how many hours do you spend for each subject each week, or each day?"

me: (i am not a vey organised person. i dont do schedule. i think its bullshit. i work best as a free person. i do what i want to do when i want to do it. and i like being this way)

it is true that organised people, being that strategic, having all the schedule, the timetable laid out.. are more likely to succeed. eventhough the truth might be painful to accept, it is true. and that is the way we should ideally live our life..

but its just hard for me to handle this kind of critique. i find it hard when my preference is criticized. it makes me want to be all defensive and.. i am pissed.. angry. so what if i want to do things my way? dont tell me how to do things when u dont know where my strengths or weaknesses are? ah that kind of feeling and rebelssss laah rasanyaa.. its the same like saying, "you cant be successful if u do things the way u do it", when in fact, u dont even know how successful or unsuccessful i am?? how good or how bad my grades are? you assumed.. you judged.. rather than (being emphatatic and helpful) that kind of advice when uttered the way it was uttered, makes people feel patronized.. worse, being looked down on..

(its like being told not to like white colour. that is wrong to like white colour when in fact u dont even understand why people like white colour and what it does to them. except this is exaggerating psal memang bnar pun no colour preference is superior than the other but being organised is clearly better than not)

tapii.. there is always a good way to convey our intentions.. our message.. iaitu.. dgn empathy.. dgn penuh hikmah.. :p

sebenarnya.. ambil yg keruh, buang yg jernih plg..

thats just my ego talking. itu adalah contoh ego saya yg tergarit...

woho!

still doing the essay. a lot more to do. and i wished this was yesterday.......