hantah ehh

mijin kiut skajap. wahaha.

im not sure how i am. it feels like... antah ah.. i dont feel so well. havent had a good 6-8hrs straight sleep, and its bothering me. knapa kh ya tebangun2 sjaa ani. anxious or worried or excited, i dont know what it is that wakes me up.. and so i felt tired lately and yes, migraine attack fr two days now.. mcm ada aura2 dmam, ada jua usulnya. antah lah.. but i hope i wont get sick. have to finish a good paper and work on my fitness...

so, please... be healthy and happy and inspired!

oh received one more marked paper the other day. probably scattered on my facebook, the photos. haha. got a distinction (75) which im so grateful for. alhamdulillah. but at the same time, makes me uneasy too.. because i needed 76 to get a sure distinction of 75 (overall - plus the weekly critical review), but that 75 got me 74.5 overall or at the most 74.8 (not quite sure brapa markah review ku yg sbuting atu.. so to be safe, i counted yg paling sikit..) hopefully lecturer ku roundoff kn jadi a sure 75 overall! amin amin ya Allah..

interestingly i was disappointed with my paper. i know its not a super good paper, it was... different. never did that kind of research paper before. a quantitative statistical essay.. i gave a try, i experimented.. but i guess, my experiment wasnt that successful. although i WILL sure give myself a credit fr that trial! my lecturer's positive comment was "its a very ambitious paper with a very creative approach" - the comment has positive traits and it is supposed to make me feel happy, and just happy. but it kills me too.. when it is described as 'ambitious', it means that the paper would be amazing if it delivers, but it kind of failed to match its intended standard.. so saya rasa down lah.. mcm kna cakapi 'ambitious plg tpi indah khabar dari rupa.. cita2 tinggi tpi inda tecapai..' aah, catu lah rasanya and.. i cant help but blame myself fr choosing the wrong 'topic'. yatah yg ku inda brapa sukaa ni topik buat sndiri ani.. i'd prefer topic yg nada choice bnarnya.. luan2 sbuting sja kna bagi.. optional topics pun okay jua.. i guess it all comes down to 'knowing your strength and weakness', if you know what you're good at, if you know yourself that well, if you know your strength and pick a topic that is good fr you, i think it'll help you do good in your task... well, i just thought that i picked a wrong topic and.. i feel like i could have done better... but then maybe the 'experiment' is worth it, at least i know what im not good at... and i tried a new thing.. and maybe i learned something... and yeah, adalah hikmahnya tu... hehehe

apa2 pun, alhamdulillah!! alhamdulillah alhamdulillah :)

hopefully i do good in the other two papers!

been spending the week jalan2 :) but the problem with jalan2 siang is that i live more at night than during the day.. so most of the days, i have a limited day light slash limited hours psal aku start tidur time siang! so klw kn jln2 time siang, its either aku kurang tidur or cukup tidur tpi ahir jln.. been trying kn usai tidur.. but failed. and i hate it now. because i wanna do a healthy routine. with the correct hours. bangun pagi, gosok gigi, minum tihi, etc etc. aaaaa. emm baah okaay laah.

now its almost 4am. baah tidur th ku. im planning to get 8hrs. so its around 12-1pm. okay tu? okay