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during this one class, we had a "find your other half" activity. (it was fun! the way it made me see some significant micro-details of life)

each of us were given a paper. number 1 and 2, with words. mine was 1, word was "liberal". the instruction given was to find the other number. for example, if i have 1 then i was suppose to find 2. we spread out. but there were a lot of 2-ss. so i was confused. what specific 2 should i find? most of us were confused! we went from one person to the other.. and still unsure. then i heard some of us "yayy-ing", oh they found each other.. but how? what made them know its their other half? then i heard someone said: oh we are suppose to find another number with a matching word! (and matching word for liberal is...?) we didnt know what meanings those words suppose to form... i moved around.. some were still moving around, some have found each other, while someone was standing at the corner, shouting "who has number 1.. number 1 please.. come here"

i went to another person. yay, a number 2.. but we combined our words and both agreed instantly "no. no. dont match" (and yet interestingly we didnt know what a match suppose to be like. what kind of match we would find. but we somehow knew ours didnt match..). by then a lot of us had found each other's half.. i could feel a bit of panic inside me.. and then i finally came to that shouting someone (who stopped shouting already at that time and started moving around).. we looked at each other's paper and instantly knew ours were a match. we instantly knew we were each other's other half. (apparently matching word for liberal is democracy..) the words given out were supposed to form specific terms that existed in the subject, the course...

but then, even when we felt that we have found each other.. someone came to him and asked whats his word.. he showed his and that other person compared it with her word and she said "oh dont you think we are a match?" and i felt... insecure? i mean, i'd have to go around find another someone! but whats more to it was.. human, woman instinct? hahah. i wanted him to defend me and say no, i already have found mine. (which he did) ... *and story menyampuk, seb asked him "hey have you found yours already?" oh seb, i wish you were my other half that day! that would be fun! hahah*

anyway.. dont u see what i saw? its so much like finding our other half in the real world.. we thought we know what we want and need to find, and just when we thought we know what we are looking for, we are filled with doubts.. but if what we found is not our other half, we know its not our other half.. eventhough we dont know what exactly is our other half.. and once we found it, both of the separated halves will know. will feel... that... click. that.. match. i think. at least, according to my theory. :p

okay. bah ~