thousands more..

i remember writing up a status, fb status, in week... 8? 9? last semester, about the workloads i have left... and now, its only week 5 -entering week 5- not one essay is submitted yet (in week 6 baru tah ada. the minor essay. so far, yg weekly review sja. tapii kpayahan ku lagi mbuat review... heheh), so.. i just wanna lay out those tasks that i have to do:

seven 500s, one 1000, two 3500, two 3000s, one 1500, one presentation, one test and one simulation... LEFT. atuu banyak. haha.

Its only week 5 now, but its August already.. and thats two months away from major due-s. one good essay needs a month. and i have.. FOUR in two months. i need a good strategy now! to add pain into it, i have 7 reviews, one 1000, one 1500, one presentation, one week simulation in between... haiyya itu tidak sinang woo.

i will sort everything out by next week. after i submitted my first 1000. then i'll get my... time management strategy in place. need to choose my essay topics... maybe i'll prepare the first two majors from aug-sept. and the next two from sept-oct. having the last 3 weeks in oct as.. admin work? mnyusun2 my point and essays... emm.. sounds like a plan. hehehe.

im worried about the partner essay one. this girl approached me and asked me to be her partner. at that time i was.. not ready. i honestly had someone else in mind.. inda juaku bnr2 serius kn sama urg atu, just considering dlm ati but.. i just wasnt ready at all. indaku mikir2kan serius lah. (and know what, ia ani betanya aku dapan2 urg yg ku consider ani tah jua.. haha. indakan aku turn down urg ani and ask that other person kali? thats bad..). i didnt say yes or no when she asked me because i was... surprised. and honestly, honest honest honest, i dont have good impression on her.. i dont really know her, just the not so good impression from observation and some conversation.. and i feel bad thinking that way about her. but then i put myself in her situation, what if i ask someone and they rejected me? plus i do need a partner dont i? i felt bad treating another person that way, and i needed partner anyway. so i came to her and asked her about the partner up thing and she found another person tia! oh... okay. asked her phone number anyway. because she said she would like to have 3 person in a group (kmi bleh dua atau tiga). so today i contacted her, asking if her partner would be okay to be in a group of 3.. because if not, i'll email my lecturer and ask him to arrange for me. as he suggested to all of us yg balum ada group. skali janya kwannya ani andang cancel segroup sama ia. form another group ya. basically this girl jadi sorang diri lah. gagar juaku tu kwannya cmatu rh ia atu tu. haha. sama ia lah ku as of now. not formally yet. esuk ku jumpa kedia. but im just scared.. because of my impression... i know i shouldnt judge people... but... yeah.. i judged :(

padahalnya ah, i dont carry good impression and personality with me as well. im sure im not people-choice-kind of person. i guess im lucky enough she came to me...

i just hope everything goes well. klw bkn urg atu yg baik utk tani, inda tani kna tamukaan and maybe learn from each other? true? :)

Fa-iza 'azamta, fatawakkal 'alaAllah..