came to class late, at 10.53am. late, because class started at 9am. pheww. pandainyee. the timetable, bnar plg janya pkul 9am-5pm.. and law intensive classes are usually, normally at those hrs 9-5. tapii arah specific course ani punya guideline, ia cakap 11am. and final class at 1.30pm ia punya start. baah aku ani konpiden lah guideline ani lurus.. because ia mengkhususkan jadual yg umum.. eeeh. didnt bother to email the lecturer fr confirmation psal it makes sense. and... i want the class to start at 11am jua. haha. and there i was.. entering class dgn penuh bangang.. liat urg settled down comfortably, with their notes. with their laptops. slideshow was on. indakan drg awal dtg brabis, it was only 10.53! then it hit me: aah, start pkul 9 kah? oh no.. time atu drg rehat plg.. tapii sungguh bangang aku!! and the seats full!! didnt know why i was heading ke seats panuh di blkng atu jua. maybe aku ada target kn duduk ali2 atu kalii. but ada tia sorang bni2 ani, ia betudung ni.. and maybe ia ani andang meliat aku dari awalku masuk dgn mua bangangku ni.. haha. but didnt quite realise that.. and she said "u want me to help u carry the table and put it here?" -beside her. and.. antah, aku inda lgi tepkir ni. awu2 sja. haih mngangkat2 meja eh. so i sat there, trying to digest everything: what happened?
ku tanya urg siringku ani.. janya sbnrnya class start pkul 9am. ia pun pkir start pkul 11am. tpinya ia ani prnah ada class with the same lecturer and indaku sure, lecturer atu call ia ataupun kwannya call ia. iatah ia tarus ke class. it was at 10am plg. maybe mostly urg tau class start pkul 9am. but me and some others were the evident of the misinfo. ada yg dtg pkul 11.10am lagii:p bkn bh aku nganyaa. haha
and since its an intensive class (long hours of the day, stuck with the person next to u), u usually get to make friendship with urg duduk sbalah. depends siapa yg duduk sbalah lah jua. haha. klw weekly classes atu pyah sikit kn ada regular kwan.. it takes time, psal duduk pindah2.. lagipun nada jua masa kn bemesra2:p u'll build up friendship slowly slowly thru REGULAR groupworks or one-time major groupwork..
anyway, this perempuan that i sat with.. kmi tnya2 apa course, dari mna, etc2.. then she asked me aku ani kraja kah inda.. and i asked: are u a lawyer- because she said ia ambil course ani psal ia rasa related to krajanya.. she said: im a judge. hmm. brapa kali udh ku telarah judge jadi klasmate ku ani. sanang kah kn jadi judge ani? haha. tapi previously didnt get to really engage with them. macam atu mbagi galat. but this perempuan, i dont know.. maybe because she helped me or because she looked... ordinary? or.. friendly? antah lah.. my first reaction was to let her know what my honest thoughts were.. sebelum ani aku eksen2 inda impress:p
i said: wow.. *paused* u must be extremely respected in ur country.. (algeria)
judge: ya.. i was treated differently there.. and its hard to switch to another profession..
me: why do u think so?
judge: because they all had some kind of respect towards me - being a judge - unless i work with int organisations maybe.. (aku assume maksudnya, people see u as somebody, as a judge, and u cant act less like one.. cant have lower kraja than that)
me: oh yeaa.. but do u enjoy being treated like that or are u pressured?
judge: i enjoyed it! (laughsss) - u know, they provided me with government cars, the men pull the chairs for me to sit.. (etc2.. macamm... why wont people enjoy that)
me: (laughs) but people put so much expectations on u.. that is so much pressure to handle.. but youre happy. thats great. as long as youre happy..
*well because me, i know i wont be happy. truly truly deeply, i dont wanna be important to everyone, to many people, i just wanna be important to those who matter.. the loved ones..*
(maybe we talked about many other things and maybe this wasnt accurate but along this line lah..)
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anyway. said on fb.. its kind of cool to get to sit next to.. important people of another country (and u didnt even know theyre important:p) when people in their country dont really get to be that near to them, i got to talk with them on semi-personal level of conversation. wahah. but.. its also a great reminder, of simbolik manusia.. quoting my fb: doesnt matter who you are.. ada masanya atau tempatnya sama sja manusia. kain
putih rumah rectangle-ish. wuish:p tbayangku klw ku artis pames di sekian2 tmpat, skali udhku jln2 ke tmpat asing.. im nothing but ordinary, but human. yatah, besides rasaku yg ke-cool-an, it reminded me that in the end.. the only thing that matters: sadaqallahu fi qaulihi "Inna akramakum 'indAllahi atqakum.." (aah ceramah sempena ahir2 ramadhan:p)
footnotes: (Adibah 2012, p. xx) ahaii. haha
and.. many other things,
1. if i were an important someone, i would need to behave like one, dress like one, talk like one.. so that i give that equal impression of 'importance'. yeah? no? does it matter?
2. doesnt matter if im important to certain2 place, i go somewhere, people dont even know me, dont see me as one. unless i am Abraham Lincoln:p hahah jooookkiiing. no, my point being.. why is it so important to be important? to some people, you dont matter. and even if u changed the world, u still dont matter to some people. or to some extent. is Abraham lincoln matters to you? and if.. IF these things dont matter, what matters then?
and.. again, it reminded me: sadaqallahu fi qaulihi "Inna akramakum 'indAllahi atqakum.."
sekian, saya akhiri dgn: wallahu a'lam. semoga mendapat manfaat, secara tersurat atau tersirat. wabillahi taufik walhidayah, wassalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarkatuh
:p esuk hari raya or lusa (maghrib).. very the inda terasa. hehe. oh and.. i got massive improvement (for such a massive failure of 25) for my paper: 68.. not that good. but mun kn dikira dari nya 25, labih dari syukur eh. hehe. since its a 10% fr each paper, thats 6.8 marks i got, over 10. and actually i have to at least get straight 7-s for every paper if i want a distinction.. so i.. need to work harder. get maybe two 7. and maybe one 8.. at least? and have to rock my major essay!
okeh. i should be mngantuk by now. tapii inda. too much adrenaline? too many things happened today?
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