am i?

have you ever cried so bad, so hard on a plane that people nearby and the steward ask you if youre okay?

nah bedrama th ku plg dlm aeroplane :( im sorry, i didnt mean to..

if u know me, then u know i NEVER cried at the airport when im about to leave home. today, i broke down. badly. it turned most members of my family silent. made amah my bro cried, too (funny that.......)

not that i didnt cry days earlier, not that i didnt cry back at home.. but i guess, it was quite unexpected that i took it that bad when i was about to leave earlier today. that was my worst public cry so far.

couldnt stop crying once i reached my seat. i know the people next to me talked to each other, asked why i was the way i was.. the steward then approached them and asked if i was okay.. how were they supposed to answer?

he then came to me and asked "are you okay" man, i cried even harder. poor him. i think i scared him. he wasnt quite sure what to do. but he finally got his point of question "but youre not sick..are you?" no handsome man.. no.. im not sick, physically.

its RBA btw.

the flight didnt feel long, i spent most of the time crying (hishhh couldnt stop!). my neighbours eventually know my story, the unclear version ofcourse... because i only managed to get some not-so flowing words out..

now that i have stopped jadi drama queen, klw ku pikir2kan macam cali plg drama ku atuu... sigh. those people also kasian, they didnt know how to react, what to say, i... scared them, made them feel... serba salah..

no worries. i have stopped crying now. waiting for my flight to sydney, 7am.

the next time i see a girl crying on a plane, i wont assume oh-she-is-such-a-crying-baby just because she has to leave home for a while, just because she has to leave someone for a while.. no.. i'll look at her.. look at her... and know... see.. with all my heart, that she... has her story.