one to five

i know ive forgotten my goals. forgotten some of the reasons i needed this one year "gateway", why i needed to buy myself one more year..

oh 5yrs ago i made a decision to trade my 'soul'.. and.. within this one year.. i.. need to find myself.. i need to find.. a peace of mind..

which i think, i kind of.. found them, blurry but im on my way.. im seeing acceptance.. but its just that im not very ready, more to physically not ready than mentally. hehehe.

and that was supposed to be my ultimate goals: be ready physically. and mentally. and excel academically. and... grow up. and... learn more about life.

i guess, im ticking (first): academic. good progress. insyaAllah. mudahan second sem pun okay. amin.
(second): life. seeing more.
(third): grow up. i guess. independence and way of thinking is.. expanding? maybe.
(fourth): mentally. coping. trying.. accepting..
(fifth): physically. very poor. hahaha.

now, as in tonight, is the perfect time to start making solid plans :) wanted to start after ramadhan.. but, i was telling myself.. how i start my semester is crucial, because then i'll get used to the routine, and it'll be harder to start doing the exercises and stuff in later weeks. because the weeks will be harder, workloads will be piling up.. and i know, im probably will never get started if i dont start it in the first week. will power baby, will power. determination baby, determination. (puipuipui, ketawa rusuk i:p)

but anyway, at least i write down my plans! aahaksss. i can do my exc at night time2 ramadhan ani. and only the light ones, no running. just indoor. lifting, sit up, push ups. and.. membanguni muscles. kononnyaaa. emm bah.

(i havent even checked prescribed books for tues class! what plans? hahah)