fine fine okeh

i think its going back to the few first essays.. read and read and.. i thought i was ready, knew what to write.. and then, opened MW.. staring at the blank page for... many many minutes. pulled out papers, as an alternative.. thinking maybe writing down - instead of typing the words would keep the idea flowing.. but no, still staring at the blank page.. for as long as i can remember.. then i gave up. did something else. facebook, maybe. but at one point, i had to force myself.. typed and wrote whatever. even if its in mixed language. asal ada! i desperately needed a starting point! and thats how i went through my mental block.. now its... three weeks after i last wrote my essay... and not only i got mental block.. sgala bentuk block ada.. haha.. batah udh ku rasanya nda mnjangkau buku.. no serious thinking.. no forcing-do-or-die... and it'll take whatever is left in me to start it all over again! did the basah2 reading, outline, preparation forr this assgn last three weeks, tapi aku lupa!! haiyo. manis!

and now, sibuk plgku bmain asap sajuk dari mulut.. haha. im in the house, tpi still berasap.. meaning sajuk th udh tu.. dlm esbok description is just about right. i dont wanna complain, because i am sure i dont like hot brabis weather. i would prefer sajuk than panas... but i am afraid i wont be liking this much cold.. this much okay, i can still stand it.. but isnt this just a second phase? baru2 kn sajuk... huuu. emm.. i'll be fine. yeah, i will be.. :)