cheesssyy!

my housemate is suweet~ haha. aku pndai mngusut eh:p and she would say "ahaha. ndaku pndai" or something like "boh, canath jua" tapi esennya sja. ia mna penyampai ati=p today she said, makan ah.. (and i didnt hear any latuk2 sound earlier) so, i was like 'apa tu?' ofcourse i had a feeling its gonna be desserts.. dari bilik, not seeing it yet, i said apa rsanya? she said manis. i asked apa bendanya? she said malu ya, adalah. so i just laughed.

to some people, this annoying personality of mine.. mngusut or demanding (yg nda hari2, but skalinya dtg ulah atu... it may annoy some people).. they think it is a trait of prangai "mnyusahkan".. maybe, yes.. but i only ask because satu habuk pn nada prnah singgah dlm utakku ani that my half-cheeky kusutan would be seen as mnyusahkn.. and more importantly, if u ask me such a same favour, i know i'd do it fr you.. but youve gotta ask me reasonably, liat mood urg, liat masa & kmampuan.. well yeah, i do that only to close friends yg i know nda bkira arah diri.. but that one day, i was happily asking a friend to masakkan something2.. we were laughing and all.. and this someone then tagur aku "thats mnyusahkan".. i felt stabbed.. and angry. why? thats a favour from a friend to a friend. i'd do that in a blink of an eye.. just because ure not the type to ask people of anything, any favour.. doesnt mean this favour i ask would be mnyusahkan. have u asked that person i asked? what do they feel about that? i was upset.. so upset..

but to think of it... thats also true. mana th tani tau jua.. minta cmatu cmani, padahal urg atu kebarataan (if kbaratan, id expect them to just say no because i'd say no too.. but i forgot manusia ani kdgnya ada yg nda  smpai ati kn ckap nda..) so i made some reflection and i thought.. i might be wrong.. i shouldnt do that.. bukan smua manusia ani jenisnya nda bekira.. bukan smua kwan ani iklas.. but u see, i cant get that prangai off me!! haha. i'd go to those people im close to, people i trust, yg ku nda malu2 kucing kn minta favour.. and im just like that. sigh. and my bro too, will scold me. he scolded me once too, because i said "oh its okay, i can rely on my friend" and he just said a big no to that. but.. i dont know.. maybe sometimes i just dont get it because so far so good psal i asked from the right people, from the right friends.. SO FAR.. and so it becomes a habit.. when its reasonable lah.. ndalah ku minta2 yg aku sndiri anggap mnyusahkan :( as simple as beibun2 tpi sadang2 serius "masakkan ku pais daging~".. *you should know i have a good instinct what kind of favour is a no and a yes* hahaha *not necessarily lurus tho:p*

i heard things happened to org lain lah jua ofcourse.. people who bekira and all.. my own friend takana jua.. and it broke my heart to see her like that msatu.. and so, i should be more careful with this favour thing..

but anyway im grateful to have some good friends.. those friends i trust.. those who was there for me.. those yg slama ani nda bkira, nda mengungkit.. i love you all.. i'd do the same kindness for these people.. maybe more.. i hope.. :)