sploaasshh

saya jadi loyar terjun laaa..

reading cases, trying to understand how to write legal memo, i find myself smiling beneath all the stresses. funny sometimes how i came to tejerumus in this kind of world. funny to see myself working out these things. just cali.. cali in a way, nda jua sinis but almost; in a kind-soft-constructing way though. hihi

i gotta admit, right now, like right now... i feel amazing. hahaha. nadalah, not in the mroyan2 thing way:p.. just, regardless how much i complained, how inadequate i often feel.. its actually amazing how these short two months (coming three) taught me a lot of things i have never had a peek through before =)

as inadequate as i feel, nevertheless i do gain something. gained a lot of things, to be fair. never knew politics could possibly be read (=p), never knew world affairs could be err.. understood? (=p), never thought law could be.. fun (tpi yeah jahat the workloads).. it was like, in 2010 i never thought i could read the language of music notes within one month. and now, never thought i'd be able to read and strecthed my nerves trying to understand the language of law. given my so-lack-of experience, ive thrown myself into the uncomforting world. the unknown. and i'd still produce my 2000-6000 words babies. (never wrote an essay msa undergrad, and hence u should understand my suffering, having to be at least at the same line with those who did hundreds of essays and thousands of memo, millions of experience..), i'd have to learn writing memo in 30mins... learn everything in the shortest given time (adding to that is my limited capacity of understanding and slow-mo reading capability and conservative-self.haha) and everything else, let it go with the flow. everything else.. tawakkaltu 'alaAllah.. faith.. :)

right now, yea, right now.. i just feel lucky. and grateful.. and its all worth it..

(and tomorrow complain again=p)

but truly truly, right now, i am so grateful. alhamdulillah..