regretssssss

ever feel like youre making all the wrong moves? and everything feels like falling apart? and u regret it all. all.

there are many things in my mind now - i shouldn't have done what i have done and done what i didnt do instead.

when i have doubts, maybe i should follow the first thought/instinct... doubts between a yes and no, i should have gone with the positive one first. yeah?

because things would have turned out differently. im not blaming fate; things happened for reasons rite?

and btw mr mata lawa was so nice. (damn he treated people kindly. u know it feels like "urg buat jahat kana balas baik?" i feel that way!!) i regreted not coming to his final class last nite. FINAL. because i was avoiding weekly q, was avoiding some people, was avoiding a lot of things. wanted to find extra time fr assgn. wanted to watch tv. yea, as stupid as it sounds like, tv. there was a part of me that wasnt tenang at all last nite. i should have come. that would change things. i should have come. i should have come!! im gonna nail your paper. im so gonna nail your paper, to make up fr my regrets.