55% happy

haih why did i turn my head at that exact moment, why why why that moment? i was making my way up the stairs, antar assgn, 30mins to deadline.. i dont know why, i turned my head.. instinct? or was there a kind of noise, sound.. something? and there he was. this indo friend of mine. sadly, this guy stole my time (macam now) to wander my mind towards him. indalah, its just i hate myself fr making things awkward-errr. i thought aku kjiwa ia seemed to avoid me. but i avoided him also.. i know he knew that i knew he was there, but i pretended not to see him, moved somewhere far, kept my distance away. why? knapakn klw kn bcakap "hows ur essay?" sajaa? whats wrong with saying hi?? bida aku atu eh... he must think that im weird :( and i already feel bad bout myself when i thought things get awkward, and now, i feel much worse.. what kind of person i am? what kind of personality does these thingsss. sasakku eh. sasak.. arh myself.. i am mean. and i am cold. and i am weird. yes. i am bad. :(

on the bright side though, 4000words (ticked!!) yay alhamdulillah. 3 classes to go. tmorow test, but now rehatku dulu. krg baca. and.. 2 presentations left. eh eh and one essay. then cuti cuti :)

i think ive put quite an effort in these particular essays. emm altho, i spent like 1week saja fr both ques (bandingkan dgn the other essays, yg ani ni i spent less time) but i put my heart in these! and they are centered to one topic and case, yatah the materials kn dibaca atu mcm concentrated arh the same articles/books. so i'd say... maybe its easier but 'easy' is tricky. its easy to lose marks too. so yeah, i put my heart in them, and put a huge huge amount of hope.. i hope i'd score well. before ani, i hope to score well jua, but not this kind of hope. this one, its the kind that'll break my heart if i didnt get what im hoping for. hoo, mudahan th distinction. amin amin

aah, someone just moved in upstairs. sagaainyaa, awal2 dtg udah tia labuk2 radio. lawa plg lagu2nya. lawa eh, tpi mun lurus ku stress, marah juaku kali.. hmm.

bh. im both happy and.. sad.. that guy punya psal. he made me reflect my personality. reflect how bad i am.. sodihku.. :'(