nyehe

hmm... macam.. getting better.. inda plg inda mengalih. hish sangal sana sini lah, but getting used to it, and when get used, it gets easier..

(morning we do the 'ha-ha-ha physical exercises' ; becali wh.. the exercises cause our muscle/body aching sana sini, lurus th sudah tu ertinya exercisenya ah. haha. before this jogging jua udh, naik bukit, netball angih2 etc but ive never felt like this before, never done this kind of fitness optimization.. ntah apa ntah:p ytah jua mbaginya mnambah pressure nd tantu2 atu:p mbagi nervous saaajaa.. and mbagi mngalih... hahaha.. then masuk ofis and do our work(pun mngantuk2), skali balik rumah mngalih daaa.. mengantuk laaah.. dh tu bangun awal lgi... -im reminded of the price and meaning of 'weekend' after a long long time heheh)

anyway 1st week was hard, very hard... 2nd week i cried in front of the boss (and the story reached other bosses. hmmmp).. but i guess letting that out made me feel a lot better.. also, got my first task done and at least i felt motivated.. days will get better but days will get harder too, there will be days i'd be so down, so giving up, so demoralised and i hope i'd be able to pull myself up again and again..

bnar eh, it was like a plane crash trying to cope with 'serious life', with the other side of the world...

i can see how life will be when i start my career nanti, i'll struggle the first few months and i'll keep on struggling.. but remind me that the first steps are the hardest.. remind me to be strong.. remind me the right intention, remind me the right reasons....

3rd week.. i hope its gonna be a good week.. going along with our second task, the big project.. i hope we'll do it right and good :)

i pray, whatever im going thru, whatever im dealing with.. it'll bring me closer towards iman, towards Allah.. amin amin :)