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day 3, training and attachment.

my first day of proper training. exhausting mcm kajar2 tgnku and my shoulder or generally my upper body. plus, hensem bnr jua urg yg men-train ani (co-trainer lah kirakan). i noticed but wasnt distracted by the handsome face, just reminded me of a someone i knew from previous program (chinese sporean. nda plg sipit matanya, just the face structure). anyways, just saying i think the handsome-ness could be a distraction someday.. hahaha astaga

emm attachment. nothing tough happened, just the toughness of mingling.. and i think everyone noticed yesterday's incident.. because i think today they mentioned something that could mean "people who dont know him would think of him differently..", things that could mean "dont take it to the heart, dont be hurt too badly"

and some words of motivation.. be opened to critism, sometimes u'll have to learn thru the hard ways, and if people do treat u bad, say bad things to you.. learn from it: they act that way because there are reasons.. we should reflect ourselves, find what is wrong and learn to change fr the better. or if not, at least we learn not to be the kind of person they are, and not to treat others that way...

anyway. i was too concerned on my hatred yesterday that i couldnt think i could forgive.. and then i read this:

"ya Allah, if i hurt others, give me the strength to apologize. if others hurt me, give me the strength to forgive.." amin.

remind me, there are reasons why Allah put us in certain situations and places, for He knows the best we will get through it, shape us for the better hamba and He knows that we will bring good things to the place.. semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan dan ditabahkan hati, diberi kekuatan.. amin ya Allah

remind me, the first few steps are the hardest..