room 000

sigh. have u ever felt like doing, saying things at the wrong place, wrong time? :s i'd say, i see myself as a considerate person, able to see through other's emotions and consider what others feel.. i am pretty good at reading things.. reading people included..

but sometimes, no, many times too, i had my guard down and possibly hurt so many people.. appeared in the wrong place or time.. and yes, became as selfish as a person can be at expressing thoughts and feelings, emotions or burdens or stories.. and minutes later, i'd find myself feeling guilty, and things keep hunting my mind.. maybe thats the cost of considering yourself as a "pretty good reader" - i dont care if others dont think of me that way.. well, its enough when i think i am.. haha :p

and u know, i always prefer having a good listener around than having a good talker who doesnt even know how or when to listen... :) i mean, i'd take someone with a balance in both.. but if you ask me to choose between people who have only one of those: definitely a listener! (only that if you become so close to someone, love them enough, u'd become an amazing talker with the ability to listen very very well, i think :D)

so anyway, for the past few months, ive been feeling like saying and doing the wrong things.. hmm.. i dont know, things just keep replaying in my mind that i could probably memorise them for at least hours after..

oh one more thing, i think im being alone is not so healthy.. haha.. no, im liking it.. but i was just thinking, if im so used to being alone.. i'd probably become too "independent".. too immersed in my own things.. probably would ignore other things that are not related to me, things that i think are not important, things that i am not in there.. i would feel like not needing others.. i'd become more selfish.. and then others wouldnt care about me too.. forget i ever exist.. and i would not receive much love and care and and.. when not loved, not cared for, i wouldnt have enough love to give others.. not enough love to spread to the world (the chain goes on and on....) :p but yes, i think of it that way..

aaah awu, my asus is dead.. :( i decided its better for her to take a good rest.. motherboard is expensive.. most said its better to buy new laptops than repair motherboard.. not that i want to let her just die.. im trying to control my budget now.. cewaah.. wael said i can sell her parts, theyre good.. but.. kesian jua ia tu? hehe. got the hard drive though.. and im bringing her back home..

but at least this one thing made my hour today.. haha.. phoned KFC, wanted a delivery.. and he said "miss xxx? what is your order" told him my order- "one snack box. spicy" and he said "so one snack box, spicy, with two chicken wings" -- haha i almost laughed for the fact that they took down the note of my previous orders of chicken WINGS :p (whenever i ordered kfc delivery - which is inda malar, can count - i always requested chicken wings.. hehehe.. bagus dorang ani, take note.. hehehe)

bah hey hey~