dear..

.. sometimes, even those who are very dear to our heart, very close to us.. dont understand us that well.. they dont really get what we are saying, what in our mind, what our joke really is about.. more than often they read us wrong.. they dont get who we really are.. and they.. somehow dont have the mind telepathy magic... and i have to say, i am surprised.. i am surprised that it could happen between two close people.. surprised.. and.. disappointed..and then it makes me think, so what makes two people that close, that..... connected, somehow? there are some parts in us that they treasure.. there are some parts of them that we feel so easy to be with.. and things that we dont find in others whenever we are with them.. yes, maybe.. maybe.. that is why.. we end up that close because somehow we love each other enough to always be there for one another.. just enough to feel easy to be around with..

.. while there are those people that we feel at ease to talk to.. people that we feel like we can talk just about anything.. its so comforting and easy to share some conversations.. share our stories, exchange our views without a hint of judgment.. and get out whatever it is there in the bottom of our heart.. someone we share the telepathy with.. understand us in many ways.. but.. but.. somehow, there is always this barrier that we never cross between us.. like, i am not depending on you, and so are you - not depending on me.. we always have to be careful with each other.. yes, we share those talks.. and i wish we can always talk like that but i guess, we dont care enough, not more than that.. somehow, besides the talk, and the mutual interests, there are just so many parts of us that dont make us a good partner.. not in the way it makes each of us easy to be around each other.. not in the way that we will be always be there for one another.. there are parts of them, of each other that are not easy to forgive..

.. there are vital parts that are missing in both relationships.. friendships..

.. i mean, people are dear to us for different reasons.. two people become close for different reasons.. and its important for us to realise that we dont get everything in a person.. and for what we dont get from them.. we learn to forgive..

.. we dont get everything in a person.. no, we dont get everything in life..

.. but say, one day i cross the path where i have to choose between the two "closeness".. i dont know.. i dont know.. i sure dont wanna be with someone who doesnt understand me deeply, who get me wrong.. and yet, i have to ignore that and forgive that everytime.. but i sure dont wanna be with someone who i dont feel easy to be around with all the time.. too..

.. but yes, we dont get everything in life.......

(except.. i dont write, i havent written yet my third or or fourth or fifth version of choices, of "closeness", of relationships, of friendships.. that.. maybe isnt so hard to forgive and live with.. no matter what:p)

.. but still, just know that we dont get everything in life......