the price

aaah. we have to admit.. there were times in life that we spent our time, our thoughts on the wrong people. and no matter how many times we cursed ourselves.. no matter how we wanted to put it as something regretful... as a mistake.. as a bad decision.. then somehow, we would remember why in the first place did we put ourselves at such expenses. and.. in the end, we know.. "the heart wants what the heart wants". that was why. right or wrong, mistake or not, we have to admit too, what we felt is what we felt.

i guess.. we'll just have to live with that- be reminded of the wrong things in our life and laugh at those mistakes, at how foolish we may seem... and yet, even when we laugh hard, even when we shake our heads profusely.. as pathetic we see we were.. it feels.. it feels.. like.. it is not really fair to put a blame on anything, not them.. not us.. nothing.. mistakes that were not really mistakes, but they can never be not mistakes.