going thru oral marathon this week.. although, the good thing is.. nada double subject in one day this year.. (actually, double subjects are quite good, pasal i didnt have a choice but to do it anyway.. so.. capat tia abisnya dugaan oral.. hehe)
next oral Al-Quraan - just got the schedule yesterday. and... im quite okay with that. jangan eh kna bagitau baru kmarin, then arini ada oral.. skali oral Quraannya esuk.. thats what i call tadaa tadaa surprise. haha
hmm. after all these years, oral still feel the same.. you will worry, people will ask from those who already done with the oral.. and its still the same tiring days- having to find the exam room and then wait. especially tiring to go through the ocean of people.. the unbelievably crowded suffocating hallway.. huh. and youre hungry and you didnt have enough sleep and you have doubts and worries.. those factors usually make me attempt suicide - by going into the exam room voluntarily, ignoring other factors; am i ready? am i not? am i scared? am i not? forgetting the worries for those pages that i didnt memorise...
today was suicidal also. the very first candidate. im not satisfied with my performance though. haha. give me give me good marks please ya dukturah. mudahan tah markahku bisai. amin amin ya Allah.. plus, feeling this way means i'll have to remember to-try-to-ace my written papers. give me good marks.... amin.
right, method 001 : let go, let go.. and pray to Allah. tawakkal. :)
and my immune system, please be good to me.. dont get angry when i didnt give you enough good sleep.. just.. hold on okay? hihi
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