dimensi xxx

im kind of.. emm, i feel like.. emm stuck somewhere-in-i-dont-wanna-mention-it.. haha, in dimension xxx (xxx again:p) whatever it means, any way you interpret it.

and i fell asleep way too easily. lazy-or-tired?

i come to admit that, when someone says "i like you" within 5 seconds of your meeting/conversation.. i'll have to say, i'll have to put my bet on it that its true. the probability of it being "true" is much higher than of it being not. BUT, the problem is... the person who is being said to... would have doubts in it. flattered. happy. proud. but, are you kidding me, you barely know me. dont joke around with a heart, with a feeling. im flattered. and if i explode, i'll hate you. but i want it so badly to be true.

NO? dont you agree? think again until u agree. hahha.

second problem: the person being said to would wonder, "what are you... liking people that easily?" (and at the same time, wondering.. if there is even the slightest hope that im the only exception. its not a habit, they do not like everyone that easily. and if its a habit though, do.. i.. have.. to.. care? haha). well.. maybe.. because i dont wanna make a fool of myself out of someone's easy habit.

**help me here, dont you stuck your mind on love relationships stories please, mari coobaa luaskan minda ke arah lain. can? macam pejabat/job interviews occasions. can? can, ofcourse, alter some parts. use imaginations. haha;p

also, third problem, yea "i like you" but both parties are swayed by the fact.. i like you but (we both dont know if i will like you for a long time.. or just for this 5 seconds or until the next 5 months.. or.. forever...)

so, i take it.. when someone says good thing about us, just.. believe them and enjoy that moment! because, who knows.. they would take it back the next day.. save the hurtssss for later, dont be scared. (note to yourself bebeh)

**now, below, is on different note/story tia, but still about "humanity" haha :P

its weird sometimes, how much you would hate someone.. or something you've always liked or loved, many times you would have to change the way you see them.. many ways that you would see and find flaws in them.. but those things could never change the way you felt about them.. the good feelings you've always have fr them.. the way you remember them in their best forms. in your best moments. their best parts. i guess, heart is really beautiful. it can never be bad, even if it turns bad, still there will always be a good part in there. up to us to really really really find it and.. yea, be good and be good....

say, u love winnie the pooh so much, gave you such good impressions.. u grow up with winnie even.. so much of inspirational words from the big bear.. but one day, the words insult u.. it goes against your philosophical thoughts or whatever, and you feel betrayed. but, i believe.. the hatred and anger you feel that moment is nothing compared to how much you've loved the bear all this time. all this long. so, after some times... all u can remember, all u can feel is how good winnie is. contohku wah.. bia tia wh... :p

hmmm. i better go to sleep, tho it seems impossible to get to sleep now after like, sleeping fr the whole day.. inda pulang~ umpama lah~

i have an early class, "tuition", tomorrow. at 8.

what did i just say? if u get it, u get it. that is some digestion skill and tolerance u have on my-some-many-times-complexity:p i admire you. (now, this is half true-half not) :p