hit and run

now that my bad bad stomachache (okay and plus  diarrhoea) is gone, now that i have the appetite and wants and cravings to eat many many things, now that i am able to jump, scream, to laugh ( i even frgot to laugh those days), now that i am able to feel things other than aches; able to feel the hot temp outside and notice it, able to feel the non-existence-of-wireless-connection, able to let frustration creeps inside.. It hit me.. It hit me.. "what have i missed?"

Okay exam is an obvious thing. So, lets not talk about that. (not that i missed my paper, dont worry, i am no superman but i wouldnt want to miss my paper :p)

and this one thing.. I missed "jf". Thats what i call the place where i planned to do my "summer thing". Sigh, now it me that i have nothing to do during summer.. It hit me that im stranded here on summer hot days with no solid backup plans. When i say nothing solid means i am just.. kind of afraid. Chances, opportunities were right infront of me and yet i let it go. Not exactly regrets here, but not exactly not regrets either. Its like, i feel like i didnt make good decisions, i dont have good plans, i am not willing enough to do this, no will power, malas, not enough courage, not enough desire? Bla bla bla. Anyways im just saying that it makes me feel the bad me. Hmmm.

Oh if ure wondering, i actually missed jf because i didnt go there to see my result, to register if i get it..sakit wh parutku,ndaku snggup eh..huhu. And i guess, because.. aku nda kuat ati jua.. Huhu.. And maybe, i somehow believed that i can do something else? Something even better?

It hit me, "what have i missed?" apart from this, i somehow feel.. I have missed so many things.. I dont know.. I just feel that way..

But yuhu babyyyy, wake up, of course ada hikmahnya. Hehe :)

wow its been a long time since i posted via handphone. Not bad lah. (and lets talk abt my stomachache some other times. I wanna let u know what it feels like. Hehe :p)

And yahuuu two more papers sja lagi~


DON'T YOU JUST MISS ME?? :p