monotone

HA HA HA! couldnt remember i have the ability to cry that much.. that.. hurt my eyes and head, not to forget, heart.

its hard to explain.. its just everything.. for all that ive kept inside.. for every little thing ive tolerated.. all things that ive tried to ignore.. all that i thought i was okay about.. every sorts of emotions ive buried inside.. everything, everything that ive tried to put behind..

and.. every mistakes that ive made, towards everyone, towards everything.. every mistakes that were made, towards me.. all the pain..

the strength i thought i had, the patience i thought was thick.. all this long.. all this long.. all this time..

it was so sudden.. made me angry, made me sad, made me down, hurt me. i guess i was just tired.. and suddenly i was tired of everything. stress? aah maybe.

it was said, "be careful with those who dont get angry often. once theyre angry, the anger will shake the earth. scares the life out of you" and.. id like to apply to : those who dont cry often, will cry badly once they do. they might scare the life out of you too.

emm. my days werent that bad kali.. when i woke up today, i found one kind of magic. hahaha. ndawah.. i have this jam (clock). a few days after i came back here, abis tia batterynya. and stop tia working. its been 3 months. didnt change the battery psal aku malas (i have two spare battery plg~). then, today.. i heard the tick tick sound.. eh jam ku jalan smula? emm. how? malasku mikirkn. kalau scientificnya apa? cold weather and the battery dan basi2 contracted skali batterynya kancang tia lpas tu working tia (all this long, nda kancang lh batterynya kirakn). hahhaha. antam kau. adakan~ hahaha

(err.. err.. if i remember correctly jua. mnatau ada ku tukar battery udh tpi nd ingat? or psal brgku byk gugur2 last 2 nights? ha ha. when i calculated it, the jam start baik 8 hours before i woke up = just when i started sleeping. pun kalau lurus)

jadinya becrita psal jam?

i guess we all are selfish, in one way or another.