beethoven virus

aaaah boringku. i can be at the opposite side of the condition. but i chose boredom. yakan? is boredom really a choice? hmmmM..

when i have nothing to do.. mcm2 lh yg dtg ke utak ku... and now its the question of- what ive become.. what have i lost.. am i who i was? and say, if i have changed.. do i change fr good? do i lost myself for good?if i havent changed.. then.. should i? and why would i care? huuu. i think its not easy to find ur definite character. i remember the line in twilight, "sometimes people just dont see them clearly-"

im thinking of those things that i did.. and still dont quite believe that i did them. one explanation is that.. when i do risky or dangerous things.. i know what drives me. one, i dont think of the bad consequences. i just do it. thinking of only the good it brings. i actually dont even try to imagine what would happen, i dont put myself in the situation.. bla bla bla.. nya urg, i dont think twice. tabak sja. two, what really really moved me was the desire. if i really want something, il do what it takes. so if u find me with excuses, means i dont want it. if u find me not interested, means il put no effort trying. apakan? actually im referring to some events... guess ureself.

im not a big fan of gossip girl. or its..i was not. addicted dhku msani. season 1 ndaku brapa suka. it was not addicitive. but season 2 is a siok siok. honestly, i find myself crying, utk some scenes.. siuk lh. of course crita chuck and blair is fun.. aku suka. tpi aku lgi suka the love between si rufus sma lily. they have always been in love... always and always... uuh, love like that, i would kill for it. haha

what else? oohho i keep listening to beethoven virus now.. balik2.. rindu ddr sc kali. ahah. oh yeah, aku admire si beethoven anieh.. musicnya is awesome. lawa bh. and u know what, he began to lose his hearing in his twenties.. lpas tu deaf.. but still, ia produce music. bravo