what happened to instincts?

i still wonder.. bnar kh nada ice cream corn (prisa jagung di egypt). udahku cari di kdai, not even one yg imported.. apatah lagi ice cream yg cone.. bnda kuning2 itu hanyalah manju.. si mango (eh talking about mangga.. tesliurku mangga masak yg manis eh! and dont let me start talking about mkanan yg ku tesliur). so.. bnarkh nada? the guy's statement atu lgi "u will never find corn flavoured ice cream in egypt" now, can u tell me why? just because ia nda market-top-demand? oh please.. cuba mkan dulu.. nyaman kali ah.. and tell me, why drg nda buat?? its nothing impossible.

u know what i love.. and really appreciate- just recently? when someone came to me and asked "kau suka ice cream corn kn? i made one bowl" (well, sort of) and then shared it with me. credit cos she knows i love it. credit psal ia pndai buat ice cream jagung. credit cos i get it when i want it the most, where i could not possibly find it. thanks =) u will never know how i can appreciate small things and dnt even look at bigger things-my bad-*hint2, cakoi jua.. mertabak.. emm.. lagi? aah u dnt wanna know. haha*

hah. and.. i wanna say again, i hate seeing those beautiful-heavenly pics of matrouh and siwa. cos it choked my leher, my breath. bcz its soo lawaaa. haha. laut always fascinated me. [wlaupun aku nda pndai swim yoo. haha]. and like i said, my current interest is desert (haha?) but true laa. at least i think soo. love the unique hotel too.

laut, the same reason why i wanted to go to SA. [plus aku mau ke safarinya la]. the same reason i wnted to go to carribean. [tmpat2 lain yg ku mau jln? adala~ haha]. hey, i know what type of places i want to go fr honeymoon. three or two options. HAHA. emm..

i dnt wanna come back to life now.. not yet.. but i have to.. kan? pull me out of this floating moment............

**and you.. did u think i refer that you to you? haha. but i do wish somehow. but.. then.. dont expect me to come out of nowhere and say "i miss you".. cos i dnt find it easy to be so true to my feelings. ive always been in denial, if u didnt know that. if u find it easy to say i love you.. to someone u never said that to.. i take it, u dont mean it. and take it from there, its my goodbye. i wont say the words if i dnt mean it. i dnt expect the better half of me would do different.

but then, just because i dnt say it.. doesnt mean i dnt feel it.

what happened to instincts?

err.. jgn buat spekulasi haa. im not in love. truly. honestly. haha