this isnt goodbye

emm.. so everyone is leaving me. whatever it means..

tadi kan, i went for hat sizing. when we were done, my friend was called out, was asked if she is the doctor. at the same time another friend kejumpahan org yg ia kenal, from the same group of people who called out my doctor friend.  then since i was the only one who wasnt talked to at that time, one of them said "yang sorang ani apa? kau pelakon kah?" i was like.. errr apani? what does that even mean? what did i doooo? haha.

so i responded with "haha napa.. ada mcm usul2 pelakon aku ani kaaah?" he said yes, this malaysian pelakon. and he told his friends so. but not in a serious tone. serious joking-ish. so i didnt know what to feel or react. mostly, aku inda tantu rasa lah. i dont even know pelakon apa. is she pretty? is she not? haha. was he mocking me? or was he being genuine, casually pointing what he thinks? i better hope the pelakon is a nice oneeee! haha. (so that im at peace, not thinking he was mocking me or something. heh). well, no wonder he kept looking my way.. maybe he was thinking "eh macam pernah meliat bini2 ani.. di mana ah?" hmm. (sikit lagi ku prasan lah. haha). i dont think sudah ku dewasa2 ani aku pernah kana mention mcm muka pelakon/artis whatever. so yes, ofcourse he made me wonder.

i am not sure why my teachers are appearing on my facebook and asking what i am doing now. like they know im going away away soon. hehe. what was my update about that made them wonder what i am doing. but in any way, its amazing how teachers and students impacted each others' livess :)

tmrrow coach invites us to go breakfast.. im pretty sure its a goodbye..

isnt it sad..? huhu

went to shahbandar this morning.. but i have been excluded from activities since last wednesday.. pasal my shin, and pasal the insects bite that got my feet some infections and bangkak. i thought i'd be happy to be excluded but no, it disturbed me. worried me. and it didnt feel good at all, not doing what others were doing. huhu. i hope i wont go into any pain or trouble in the days to come..

Rabbi yassir wala tua'assir ya kareem.. rabbi tammim bil-khair.. amin ya Allah..