but im not whole

emm.. now that things sink in, go in static, busy is over... i now realise, that im a hole, an empty hole (-_-) hehehe.

im tired. but still in the mood of jalan2 (tpi nada dangan. ai kesian:p) tapi bnar th, mngalihku.. inda juaku rasa aku sanggup jalan kali.. just the mood is there. ani pun aku balum balik krumah bnr2. at my bro's. im too tired to drive home.. yatah urg kn jalan2 ani ni ah? :p

bfore i went to spore, that monday nite one of my bros asked help from one bro to ambil his car di kb (bcause he was going offshore and ia drive sndiri ksana. ksian.. haha).. my bro asked me to help him.. my point is, that was the furthest i ever drove (yet) heheh. cian eh, sakai. monday siang, i didnt sleep.. but my bro thought i was asleep.. so he wasnt worried i'd be mengantuk while driving.. tpi sbnrnya i was worried myself (but ofcourse i didnt let him know), so i had to take a little caffeine (mountain dew's caffeine pun saja. hahah) and chewed mentos all the way spnjang drive. alhamdulillah, one experience added. esseh.

spore.. was.. spore. it wasnt really a planned trip. kind of last minute. when travelling, sometimes the experience differs with the people ure travelling with. ive been to spore before, but for different purposes lah. this latest trip was the santai one tpi need more days lah. hehe. all trips gave me different feelings. this time, the highlight was (mngalihkubejalan!!) na, fooding with them was fun! i dont know how or why exactly. maybe psal klw ku blayar, makan has never been my priority. kan save masa and bcause places yg slaluku aga pyah kan cari mkanan halal (but then even aussie and cairo pun fooding werent this fun, despite ia sanang kn cari mkanan. hehe). maybe bcause they were so excited about it, it felt contagious. bleh lagi dorang bebalik to bugis just to eat durian. haha. aku yg inda behajat ani pun tiba2 mbali sekantung manggis (my favouritessst buah) dan memakannya sambil melepak. we were only there for 5 days -minus departure day, 4 days lah-... so, we had to make use of the time bisai2. went out as early as 8,9am.. and went back at 11pm.. mngalihku nyamu bjalan non-stop. sangal batis. coach told me before aku jalan: "walk around the shopping complex for two hours everyday" what two hours? its more like 8hrs non-stop exercise kaki!

i thought i am half a boy, i know i can understand what men feel when their girls go shopping and they have to tag along. (bcause i felt something too, klw ku ikut urg jalan shopping yg seharian tpi aku nada hajat langsung kan shopping) BUT then, in spore, i learned that im 3/4 a girl afterall. boutiques excite me! so much! haha (note: ive never been to KL and aku inda meliat butik dbrunei. hehe).

went to USS ofcourse! my favourite kind of place, the playground. adrenaline-ish activites. (but i like nature too).

ah. what else? tmorrow im gonna go back to training session. and start my knk volunteering ari slasa kali. excited! hehe.

i think, im pretty happy. contented, but not whole.