february

alhamdulillah for today. alhamdulillah for the past week. alhamdulillah for whatever im feeling now, for whatever ive been feeling lately (wlw tah kiranya atu trick hormon pebaik kaah...), alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal..

my reluctance (and it comes, it goes.. now it goes but it'll come again and hit me harder..), to think of it.. of those regrets and complains and hatred ive been so noisy about, to think of it... it could have been so much worse if i had not been where i had been, had i not been where i am.. and i could have died had i not done (forced) to do these physical exercises (instead of dying from doing it, i could have died from NOT doing it.. i mean.. who knows right?) kesimpulannya adik-adik, Allah's plan is always beautiful.. and i have to remember that, always..

i dont know what makes me happier each day, maybe the tasks lately were easier or.. i havent been given much homeworks outside office hrs.. or its because i am not alone anymore? ive made friends u know? haha.. and its been.... interesting but more to it is the way i could learn from them, and from all these.. and now that ive got people to talk to, to share our pains with, it feels a lot better.. maybe sometimes thats all we need: a friend.

ah. saya mau tulis byk ini, tpi macam susah mau susun. lalu saya pun mengantuk. bah.