against all odds

eh.. ada aktiviti sasat arh blog ani.. ada post ghost-y.. hehe (ku delete taya:p)

i was so sleepy this morning, buat2 mnunggu facebook loading atu tutup mata skajap, atupun bleh drifting drifting, melayang2 rasanya.. ai.. balum lagiku kraja ni.. no good~ no good~ dari kmarin sudah kalat mata kronik ani.. i spent the whole afternoon kmarin tidur dlm ofis (ampai saja kpala atu atas meja.. gulung saja..) tidurnya ani lagi tidur yg smpai beaing liur.. :p haha.. tidur th ku sdh tu bnar..

wanted to post some serious posts tpi expaayad sudah, bcakap psal mengantuk th plgku.. (last nite pun aku awal brabis tidur.. haiya..)

just glimpse of what i wanted to post (one of)..

some years ago, i met a humble man.. a very down to earth leader.. u cant tell if he is a super smart man plg- thats not something i could see straightaway.. but.. ia ani jenis "bejiwa rakyat" lah.. someone who knows what difficulties mean, empathatic, inda ambung, i could sense loyalty, sincerity, charismatic and a hugeee huge good soul in him.. he is a very beautiful person..

he had a medical condition when he applied to be a military.. and the doctor advised him to just cancel his application because obviously he was unfit for it.. but he went against the advice, saying "i will die eventually.. so if i die, then let me die for my country" and so he was in the military.. well and alive and shining (though he suffered another condition some years ago) but he is well..

there arent many people of his kind left nowadays.. to find someone living fr the country/fr others is like 2%, to find people as humble and sincere as him is like 10%, to find someone who is strong enough to face the struggle and go against all odds is like... 5%...

i cant imagine how many discouraging words had he heard.. and how many discouraging moments he had encountered.. how much struggle he had within himself.. the strongest motivation he had was having the soul and heart and all of him in what he was doing.. he wanted what he did.. and he went brilliantly.. thats the power of wanting and enjoying something we do...

he earned my respect.. and he will always have it..

those years i met two different leaders that i look up to.. (bleh lah jdi inspirasi jua.. hehe).. theyre both very different.. yg ani ni, the one i told u about, the other one was this super smart man (i never met any other real person who is smarter, brilliant, sharp, pndai bekeraja, etc. than him) but he was not that "approachable", jenis ada wall rasanya.. kurang jiwa rakyat or its just ia ani mbari galat brabis.. i like them both in different ways.. and i want to have both of their "qualities" - if possible.. cewaah.. hehe

bh kan tidur saya eh