super sharp vision

so... how many smiles have i missed, living in my blurry world for years? -smiles, both receiving and giving? yakni kabur mata tapi malas makai spect. pakai time class atau time kan meliat numbur bus saja :s

on my 2nd appointment, the optometrist asked me if my eyes felt okay.. and i said, something isnt right. which turned out to be quite true. she explained that my perscription increases to 150 (degree) but she gave me lens 125. said that i could see well with 125 so she was afraid 150 would be too strong for me, that it might give me headache. and some people dont like having such a sharp vision.. but i decided to try 150 nonetheless. because its so much sharper. inda payah kn focus pn nampak. when i came again, she asked whether im okay with 150.. i said im not sure. it feels a bit tense but not enough to cause me headache. and said "but i do like this vision" smiling sheepishly (i dont even know why i said it in that tone and with that smile. psal it doesnt make much sense kali, choosing a vision u enjoy over 'health'. heheh. tpi inda plgku headache, so i think im good.. insyaAllah.. amin).. she laughed, saying "fair enough"

having this sharp vision, super sharp vision.. i realised the things i have missed seeing for the past years. nothing that i regret lah. with this vision, its both fun and scary. hehe. fun bcause i notice every little thing and its just amazing to see small letters from such a far distance. sometimes, my housemate and i would stop on a street.. asking each other "can you see that?" pointing at the smallest of letters. and laughed when one of us struggled to see. or laughed when the question doesnt make sense, mun yg luan di ampir pun kn dtnya, sadang th sudah tu:p ah what a wonderful world. happy and laughing fr... 'nothing-ness'. haha.

when u have a blur vision, u dont realise people can see u from a distance because u cant see them. and because u cant see them, u automatically have the mindset that they have the same vision - they cant see u too. tia karang, now that i see faces and eyes -where people directed their eyes- it could cause certain self-consciousness to me. especially time presentation lah nnti, it'll be scary. haha. moral of the story, i wont dare to even "menantang2" urg now - dlu batah meliat arah urg, psal kn try focus ia siapa atau ia behapa.. ani inda lagi brani kali eh.. ~

anyway. i did miss a lot of things. but these days, contohnya tah when i went jogging the other day.. ada this cute little boy, maybe 2 years old was staring at me.. i realised that so i looked at him, smiling.. (eh when u still can smile atau mampu lagi bcakap time jogging, balum lgi tahap kepisan tu.. wlwpun th rasanya mngalih, its not time to give up yet. heheh) so the father looked at the direction where his son was looking. the son was probably wondering and keheranan meliat aku.. maybe he wasnt used to the sight of urg betudung or its just me as orang asing. and the father then said to him "say bye bye, say bye bye" so i smiled, waving at the kid. thats the kind of thing i have missed without my super sharp vision; a kid's loving gaze. a kid's happy wave. a stranger's sweet smile. klw timeku kabur mata, i wont even notice the kid was looking at my direction.. and so, i wouldnt even smiled at him..

went out around the city (again). ive always liked it, "jalan2 tanpa tujuan" slash "jalan2 without planning" - just go wherever ur instinct and legs lead u..

again, im surprised with my new eyes. jalan2, and i noticed the little things, like whats written on the  cover lungkang. u know, it kind of scares me but it makes me all smiley. psal sakai. haha. tpi time inda angan2 atau becerita plg nganya nampak tu.. mun time utak "sibuk", lungkang basar pun diri tegugur~ :p

and so.. yeah.. i did miss a lot of things.