tears and words

emm well.. wasted my time watching x-factor usa.. ada jua kali 2 jam eh! haha. i watched this girl, ia performed.. she cried because the song lyrics so personal to her.. and when she cried and got hugged... i felt her.. not bcause her story connected with me, but because i know how it feels like to... have that kind of pain. so painful u cant control urself.. crying in front of strangers when u try hard not to, feeling so secure and calm in those hugs that u dont wanna let go.. suffocating, trying NOT to cry but the tears roll down anyway..

when people say "sakit ati" - "teluka" when theyre crying, i literally felt my chest was burning those days..

huhu.

eh essayku ani bah.. im... at zero word :( due lusa!! bnarnya the topic ampai2 udah kna bagi since the beginning of the course, and that was in JULY. mnyasal inda mengarajakan dari dlu ada jua rasanya, in fact, rasakan menampar diri sendiri bah! haha. this semester had been tough, minggu2 ada critical review. and i thought every week ku inda sanggup.. then hold it until later lah.. yatah tu nah..

and its 3500 words, for 40% marks. 40%!! its sedikit compared to other courses..

its kind of impossible to get a good score, writing research essay in 4 days - without prior knowledge in the field..

i probably need around 20ish marks more to get a PASS... but...

ah mudahan good grades. at least a pass. amin ya Allah..