paper and paper, hopes and gratitude

so... i screwed my test last nite. but this afternoon, got email from my lecturer regarding the mark of our previous "partner" assignment aaand we got pretty good mark! bukan partner simulation aah.

with my disturbed emotion, not working so hard (but consumes time), with due-s bejurut in the week, no experience, and mbuat essay atu mcm nada prasaan.. and most importantly i didnt feel good, takutku tu paper ah bnarnya.. i thought out of 35, 20 would be good enough.. so 27.5 is a very good mark. saya sungguh bersyukur. sasakku ni bnarnya research paper yg 3000s ani, smua jua sama over 100, tapii percentage yg kna ambil dari paper atu lain2, depending on the subject's assessment punyaa caraa lah. so no matter how tinggi ur mark is, mcm rugi juaa tu putting the same effort fr a less percentage... kaaaan?

skali bnar kaali paper ani kna bagi good marks because i/we (dont know partnerku) did bad in my/our test? ah mudahan th i scored a good mark. amin. for now, i have a confirmed pass fr this subject. alhamdulillah. satu subject lapas. hopefully cukup markah dapat credit.. amin.

sms-ed my partner bcause the lecturer asked me to fwd the email to her.. then i kind of wanted to share my happiness with her. skaali ani nada ya mereply. bila timingnya salah, ada tuu ya. ah dear me, dont talk about someone else like that...

alumku tidur dari kmarin. i mean more than 24hrs now. kajar2 tired and lapar ku sudah ni. haha. and this kind of exhaustion makes me hard to sleep slalunya.. dont know how am i doing with paper yg due arini.. probably yg paling last minit and the hardest one. had a hard time just trying to structure my essay.. and it feels like starting from scratch brabis.. andang plg most of the subjects ani aku inda tau apa2.. but.. this one brabisss lagi inda taunya rasaku. hehe. not even sure if i did right.. ish.. mudahan th lurus, and good grades.. amin!

so anyway, my lecturer's comment on that 'partner' paper:

no. 4 probably makes me the happiest. comment like this never fails to make people feel like they have found reasons to live again. haha.. but.. seriously, it makes me believe in myself. sure lah esuk2 guyang lagi.. bad things could happen... but... yeah, for now, at this very moment.. i am happy and veryyy very grateful. alhamdulillah:)

bekumpal on my bed - find something to eat - mandi - solat.

sesungguhnya aku bebau. kelmarin i went to school at 330pm. and smpai ani ku masih sama baju. haha. tdi ke skulah antar paper, aku tukar lah, tukar lapis jee. but my point is, aku masih pakai baju yg sama! u can imagine how busy i was :p