what i learned these.. (what, 6 months already? ah i wanna go back home!), what i learned from them lawyers.. if youre clever enough, you can defend whats wrong. if youre clever enough, you can use the law to make the wrong things seem.. right.
if (we, human), can be clever enough to defend whats wrong, then it must be so much easier to stand for whats right. true? yes. so lakas tah...
aah i dont wanna go to school! i hate classworks. groupworks. and starting next week, i'll be burying myself into books. sigh. but maybe the super busy weeks could get my mind away from thinking how much i hate groupworks and classrooms (except watching seb and handsome guys. hahah. NADAWAH.)
this morning, i woke up at 3plus am, wanted to prepare tomyum for sahur. masukkan bawang, masukkan ayam with the aing sudah ni.. and then i tried to open serbuk/perencah tomyum punya bottle.. ia baru wh, u know mcm butul mayonaisse yg kaca atu, payah kn buka slalunya time awal2.. and the tomyum is no exception. indaaa mau wah, sampaaai ku marah! haaha. atukan aku pyah2 kn bangun, ayam pun mendidih sudah tapi inda jua mau dibuka? ahir lagi sudah tu. i got angry. frustrated. rasakan pacahkan butulnya pun ada. ku tutup tambak. went to my room. duduk atas katil, or was it bekumpal atas katil? and after a few minutes, or seconds... tenang lah sudah jiwa hamba. i calmed down, i could think.. so i found other ways to buka the bottle! and sambung masak.
what i see is that.. im just.. its just the way i am! i am like that. when things dont go my way, i got frustrated, i got angry. i dont try to find solutions first. marah dulu, turn away to find space. calm down. and then baru befikir! marah first, think later. hmmmph.
its 1030pm now... think i should (try) go to sleep........
ya Allah... berikanku ketenangan hati, ketenangan fikiran, ketenangan jiwa.. amin.. ya Allah :')
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