school :(

dont wanna go to school :( second term starts this monday... my class starts on tues.... i dont wanna check the blackboard.. i dont like seeing the email from the lecturers "looking forward to seeing you next week".... well, im not looking forward to going to the classes....

i cant wait for the PG completion and graduate... with good grades... but.. aah, i dont wanna go through the hard weeks, the challenging courses, the tough works.. no weekend... the long hours, class participation, weekly quiz, presentation, group work, the overlapping research essays... aaaa... mngalih!!

sabar sja :s

its a little relief thaat im not that "new" student anymore. a bit familiar now. and when i see those new students, surung2 drg punya luggage psal pindah rumah.. going thru their 0 weeks.. aah im glad i dont have to do that again. but on the other hand, it also means that its scarier because i know what to expect now, i know how "not knowing" feels like.. and i cant make excuses of "being new" to the course, to the uni, to sydney...

im quite happy with my 1st sem results! very happy in fact.. except that one subject is still pending psal lecturer alum abis marking.. yatah mbaginya ku kurang happy psal masih wondering.. but i hope i score well on that one!! amin...

you remember my last assgn, Louisa? im 3 marks short from getting High Distinction (HD)!! skaliinyaa aku happy, and a bit tamak.. saying "aah 3 markah lagi, how i wish!!" haha. but alhamdulillah!! happy!! didnt quite expect that.. although at the beginning of first sem (or was it in the mid), i had my mind set for HD on that subject.. psal msatu smangat lah konon2nya masa belurih two narrow Distinctions (D) on my essays, yatah kn mnarget D for all courses lah tu.. but it turned out, assgn yg last atu sesungguhnya baraaat brabis kn mbuat... if u read my previous posts, u know how malas and barat rasanya kn mbuat.. and honestly, i can feel some regrets for this particular assgn, telling myself i could have done more, could have done better, earlier, smoother.. feel like i didnt give my all.. ah mnyasal pn nda guna2. haha. comparing dgn that one subject yg aku score Credit sja, i didnt have any slightest regret fr that one, i thought i have given my best.. and thats all i need to feel.. :) but all in all, im very grateful. alhamdulillah.. alhamdulillah ya Allah..

i hope to do well this next - FINAL semester. ya Allah kuatkan semangatku, jadikan aku org yg bersyukur, permudahkan&berkati urusanku.. & luruskan niatku.. amin amin ya Rabb..