theory

in theory, i cannot run an okay run anymore. because i havent jog for months now. sad. and now the weather is cold, its gonna hurt more. the nose, the chest. and my muscles are sleeping. to wake em up, its not gonna be an easy pain. haha. but i cant go back home without having my fitness ON and physically at least 50% ready. judging my personality, its likely im gonna do it last minute. judging from the other side of my personality, i might do it much earlier if i feel much of the pressure and fear..

i remember that one particular exercise we did during poc in Nov last year. that was my first day. and second for most of them (i skipped the first day psal ada field visit. aah yatah tu, the day i experienced "apa liat2 saya" haha. my second day at office and our first day of formal ex with the coach). so that day, we were asked to do this ex: yang naik turun bench atu.. naikkan kaki kanan, turun, then kaki kiri naik rh bench, turun and repeat.. with speed lah tu.. sangal and sasak napas nyamu, bukan randah bench atu... typical bench, wooden sport indoor bench punya height lah.. tempat audience duduk.. it was indoor and we did that after we did some light run (run-walk-run-walk. but we werent fit, ke leher jua ngalihnya by the end of that run-walk ex. aah before run-walk atu, kmi kna suruh round the indoor, jog with some movement. cali and bida plg usulnya. haha). okay, so the bench. we were timed for one minute awal2 atu. and bukan nganya one set ni ah. hehe. i dont know in which set, could be the first one. i felt so tired, kan tejeluak nganya inda rasanya.. but as i looked to my left and right, all the kaki continously turun naik ni.. none of them stopped even fr one cheat.. all my friends, they did it continously.. wow.. aku yg kan kan give up ani pun malu kan give up, galat.. "nada urg give up. inda kan aku yg first? inda kan aku sorang? krg coach ani marah?" as much as i wanted to kepisan or or throw up rasanya.. masih jua ku turun naik bench atu.....

then weeks after that, we became much fitter. we've done much complicated and difficult ex. we knew each other well, we knew each other's weaknesses and strength. we knew the coaches and the coaches knew us. and i started to cheat already. hahah. inda lagi malu klw kn give up:p indalah nyanyat give up ofkos. selected ones. hehe. and we reflected those first few days of ex among us:
me: "pisan wah masa mula2 ex ah. paling kpisan th bench atu!! sikit lagi tejelumpuk rasanya. kn give up ku sudah tu, skali liat kiri kanan, nada pn urg give up. kamu smua steady ah. nda stop ani wh. inda th ku jadi give up"
them: "tia krg!! kn give up kali ku ah. skali liat nada org give up. nda ku jadi"
them: "ada kali ku stop ah skajap. ku liat nada org stop, ku sambung th balik"
them: "haha brngkali inda ngam timing tani atu. time tani menoleh ngam sorang2 concentrate turun naik bench"

OH! rupanya. haha. i thought i was the only one yg kn pengsan. we all felt the same. but no one showed what they felt! haha. moral of the story: set ur mind like u set ur mind that first day. u'll just do it no matter how much u wanted to give up. hahah. aand that first day was the only bench day, lapas tu kana suruh buat that ex arh much randah thing tia, mcm arh steps of tangga and equivalent height lah. nasib jua. haha. aah sweet days :')

SO, in theory, again, it'll be good for me if i go to sleep now. (no, its good if i went to sleep 4 hours ago, at 10pm!!). and wake up early.. have a good day, good nutrition, good exercise and moreover, jalan2 siang wouldnt be a problem. yes? so, i'll try to sleep now, wake up early. tmrw sleep earlier... and the routine changes fr the better. (but im telling you, ive been planning to put my theory into practical since weeks ago! but mission is not yet successful. hahah)

plus, problem is i already tertidur dari pkul 9pm smpai 11pm tadi. haiiya. :p

anyway, on a different note, i cant help but feel the happiness for the Egyptians. on their new president. the place i can honestly call home, too. i pray Egypt will change fr the better. the best form it could ever be. mudahan Mesir dan rakyatnya sentiasa dalam lindungan Allah, semoga Mesir aman makmur di bawah pimpinan Islam.. amin.

aah, it just makes me miss egypt a little more now :')