prarpropkapkap

poc days were good. i did exercise, those crazy exercises yg mbaginya ingkang2 kn trabah nganya inda... and i did monitor my diet well. i'd eat protein, i'd avoid cholestrol if i could.. haha. and i makan a lot. heavy bfast, after exc (klw ada mkanan available.kdgnya behata), at 10 (klw opis bagi nasi, then its nasi), lunch, hi tea, dinner and supper tpi supper jarang. and yet i didnt gain a lot of weight. only GRAMS. altho my body's compo changed into plus 2 kilos muscle but minus 2kilos fat.. hahah. i dont need another loss man. i need a gain. but its so hard to gain when we did such a lot of running. inda running pun ku payah gain nih.

but ive abandoned those glorious days, sadly. 

there is this netball, organised by student body di sini. first time was in march, msatu aku stress brabis. so without even a micro hesitation, i joined. i wanna transfer my pressure arh the ball:p thats the plan. skali ujan. inda jadi. and then sunyii. aku pun inda jog lagi jua. then recently drg abis class kali, off week. revision. and ada tia lagi msa ari saturday. but i was selesema. and since rmai urg kn main, i hesitated a lot. mainly psal aku gagar lh, hahah. i dont know if i can even catch a ball anymore? havent played netball for a year plus. and i have zero stamina. ZERO. adding to that, i was sick. krg memalukan diri sendiri sja;p so.. no. tapi kana cancel psal ujan lgi. that was yesterday, kana postpone today. when a friend sms me... i said yes. because my health got better yesterday. and nya urg klw damam bisai dbwa bpaluh. plus i think i'll get bored if i stay dlm rumah memanjang. i better at least liat drg main. and i was thinking, staun labih udh ku nda main netball.. but if i could played with and caught those 2kgs balls during poc, why would an ordinary air-light ball turned me hesitant? esseh. kambang-kambangan:p aah pisan tu the 2 kgs ball.. mula2 bnr eh, exc mcm biasa, angkat angkat, turunkan.. cmatu cmani.. but as the days went on, lambung to your partner, bawa belusir etc.. dont u underestimate 2kgs atu... kapus2 jua eh. and one day, we were asked to pass2 the ball mcm netball but without the "goal net", lambung to ur group members and count brapa kali u can pass to each other beturut2, if inda beturut2 (klw kana catch ulih the other group) then count ur passes back to zero. when u reach ten passes in a row, then its a ONE score. haduii, tebako rasa dada i. hahah. ngaleh2 blusir bh. and the ball, dangerous jua tu bnrnya. hehehe. but handle with care sja lah. pcaya jua the coach we wont hurt oursleves ah? hmm maybe he knows better, abis2 pun binjul kali sj? hehe. 

skali netball atu, today cancel lagi, psal ujan sikit and inda cukup urg kali. psal ujan kn, so inda rmai yg respon to that this early hour. and me, when i woke up.. i saw ujan.. then my mind ter-set"nda jadi", plus.. i cannot risk my health with the weather.. hehehe. i dont wanna go back to my 1st-2nd day of selesma. aah scary:p ada ubat merah dbrunei tu.. last time aku kna bagi ulih my sis in law, ubat from private clinic.. aku suka that ubat.. ia prevent the cold.. if have the symptoms, then swallow the pill, sleep, the next day nyah hilang the symptoms, insyaAllah klw diizinkanNya.. hehe

bh what am i gonna do for the rest of the day? kan jalan, indaku bdgn:p and im not in the mood to jln2, esp in this weather. main netball was a yes just because it'd give me paluh in a fun way. hmm buat assignment, balumku bemood :( will try to start tmorrow lh. i wanna finish it, at least the 'rough-unedited' version lah by 15th.. tapi tapi... antah ah, i doubt it.. psal prangai last minute (aah inda bgarak bh aku ani klw nada that "danger alert" kicking in) and... now aku rsa kn berehaaaat sja. no good no good. but if i want to get a distinction, i better start tmorow, that'll at least give me better chance and close the doors for possible regrets.. haha. bh i go back to sleep sja now?